Wednesday, April 25, 2012

So long....

I know that it has been a long time since I just sat down and thought about what I wanted to write. I know that I'm not the best and sticking with anything for long periods of time without there being any reward. There is  no reward for this, I have very few followers and probably won't ever have many.

I am currently struggling with that end of the school year lag. My brother is graduating from high school so I am pulling all kinds of stops out. I am currently working on a t-shirt quilt that is taking up the better portion of my living room. I have silk flowers for prom flowers all over my dining room table. I am exhausted to a point where I really don't know what to do other than cry. I know that I need to take a shower, do laundry, fold clothes, wash dishes, clean the fridge and sleep until my brother graduates from college.

I have been neglecting being on here in favor of reading other blogs just because well it is easier to see what others are writing about instead of actually just sitting here working on something for myself. I guess really I am trying to find out who I am right now in this blogging world. Do I want to blog about my life? Blog my clothes? The very slow and unmotivated weight loss journey that I am on? Crafts? Books? There are just so many options and I don't know what to do.

Really my life has never been about any kind of control, I just wander aimlessly around waiting for the right thing to hit me at the right time. I hate to sit and rush something because it just feels forced and I know that it sounds forced. No one wants to read drivel that could simply be your own life. I'm not here to just sit and complain about what is going on in my life, but it is hard for me to let people into my personal life because there are so many things that just hurt to talk about. I know that this seems like no where but I am racing the battery right now and I see the screen starting to dim and that means that time is limited. I would like to get to bed before midnight tonight because it has been a few weeks since that has happened. My new smart phone is keeping me awake at night because now I have all these games that I can play at night instead of reading because I don't need a light for the phone. I have finished another book on my thirty before thirty and I guess that means I should sit down and right about what I thought. I need to check and see what books are on that list. I guess at night I could read Hard Times instead of playing games since I downloaded it on the books app.

I am going to try and do this a little more often. I would like to have more than a mass of posts at the beginning of the year, a smattering in the summer months and then this mad dash at the end of the year to make it seem like I don't care about it.

love ya!