I don't understand...

I've spent most of the day looking at blogs and trying to figure a few things out which usually is just dangerous territory for most of the world.



There has been a lot of upheavel at work lately and it's causing a bit of chaos that is fun to sit and watch. There have been a few positions that have come open and a few that may be coming open soon if things don't straighten up. You're an adult you shouldn't have to have someone else hold your hand everyday when you do your job that you've been doing for over 6 months. That just isn't the way that a company should run with the boss always having to stand over you telling you how to do your job step by step.



There are just so many things that have been on my mind lately. Like why is summer now considered another season of television instead of a chance for me to catch up on everything that I didn't get to see during the regular season because I was watching something on another network. Because we are too cheap to have a DVR and the VCR has fallen out of favor with everyone. But I still want one. I really really want to get a DVD/VCR combo for Christmas. So far that's the Christmas list and Alice in Wonderland on DVD. I have a few movies that are on tape that I really want to watch without having to go to my mom's to watch them.



I do have to say that I'm a little sad about having to train someone to take my place at work but it's been good. It's given me a little bit less stress because it just does. I'm finally getting to show someone who is more than capable of doing it. Other people that I work with are not capable of even covering for me while I'm at lunch.



I don't understand why everyone I work with think that is okay for them to skip lunch. Not the skipping eating, the skipping clocking out for an hour, so that they get overtime. Everyone is supposed to take an hour for lunch and one day off a week and no one seems to care about that. It frustrates me because our boss has told everyone that isn't an option to work through lunch just because you want to and especially so that you can get off early. That makes me so frustrated because they do that all the time, leave early and then we don't have anyone to help in that last hour.



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Been a long week...

It has been a seriously long two weeks at work. I spent most of Saturday morning on Etsy looking at all kinds of goodies and it makes me want to get my house clean so that the creative juices can come out. My house is a disaster zone and I hope to get that going in the next week so that I can get all the creative energy gone.

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Monday....

Yep like the song says, "just another manic Monday" now its not one of my favorite songs but it is the truth. There is so much to do and so little time to do it. I'm trying to figure out why life hits you like a ton of bricks. There is no easing into it, it's just like bam life.

Last week we had to buy a new car. That's one of the worst things in the world to have to do all of a sudden. It was like out of nowhere we had to get a new car. And it wouldn't have been so bad if we didn't have to have two cars. If we had been able to put it off for a few months it would have been better but then again that is not how life goes. Now I'm stuck in a frantic race against a financial clock to find a job. Trying to figure out how to get pennies out of everything that we have. I'm not sure if it's going to work. If anyone has tips I would love to know how to do it.

Its bad when you find yourself googling how to make money online. Which is kind of a pain in the butt to figure out what you can do that isn't going to cost you out the tail end. I really have taken to filling out any and all of those surveys that are advertised on the reciepts for every place that I've been in the last few weeks. I mean it doesn't take that much of my time and if it works it does. No harm no foul to do it.

I think I may look into one of those websites where they pay your for essays that you've written...yeah I'm that desperate to make some money. I'm willing to do high school homework for any kind of money. So need help I'm here.

It has kind of made me super neurotic about spending any bit of money right now. Which is making my birthday celebrations kinda of blah and boring because it is hard to think about having fun and spending money when you know that you're running low on it very fast.

have to go do some work.

love ya!

Summer...

I can't believe that it's almost the end of the summer and well I don't feel like anything has changed. I'm still spinning in the same little circle that I was when it started. It makes me sad. I wish that I could be posting news that was happy or sad but I don't have any. I have pictures to put up but my camera is upstairs and I don't really have the patience to try and deal with the camera and the computer being slow. And outside it's trying to rain which is making my internet go crazy.

I feel all full inside and no way to get it out. I really want to run. To just get out and run until I hurt. I've gotten all numb and that makes me crazy. That I want to run until I hurt just to get to a point where I can feel pain. I'm not sure why feeling numb like that makes me want to run. I don't even run in general. I guess it's really just a way to clear my mind until I can just do something to get it all out in general.

I love the fact that my boss is also my landlord. At times it's a little bit of an annoyance but other times it makes it great. There is a lot going on right now and atleast I can say that it has nothing to do with me. The next thing that I want is for my cousin to put up the fence around the little patch of patio that we have. Eventually I will get up some pics from around the apartment but haven't much had the time.

love ya!

casualty of work...

It was a long day at work and there was a casualty. Hopefully I can get the picture on here before I'm done. We have a problem at work with pens running away. So to alleviate that issue in my office, I took the box of spoons that came with the office and attached them to several of the gimmie pens from the Verizon office. That way no one would take them and if they did, then I would be able to find them.

After a year, the last remaining spoon fell victim to my desk chair. Which is the third one that I've had in the last year. I killed him. He was a good little trooper and he will be missed. I didn't even have the heart to keep the pen. I had to put in him the trash can, which he fought. But he will be missed and I will have to find something else to pass on to the next person to take my place.

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Frustrated...

Getting a little bit frustrated about everything right now. It just seems like I can't do anything right. Everything is going all to pieces and I can't do anything about it. I guess I should just stop and think about what I really want right now and maybe things will start to look up.

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happy fourth...

Happy fourth!

There's not much more that I can say today.

Just be careful and have as much fun as possible while being safe.

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