So long....

I know that it has been a long time since I just sat down and thought about what I wanted to write. I know that I'm not the best and sticking with anything for long periods of time without there being any reward. There is  no reward for this, I have very few followers and probably won't ever have many.

I am currently struggling with that end of the school year lag. My brother is graduating from high school so I am pulling all kinds of stops out. I am currently working on a t-shirt quilt that is taking up the better portion of my living room. I have silk flowers for prom flowers all over my dining room table. I am exhausted to a point where I really don't know what to do other than cry. I know that I need to take a shower, do laundry, fold clothes, wash dishes, clean the fridge and sleep until my brother graduates from college.

I have been neglecting being on here in favor of reading other blogs just because well it is easier to see what others are writing about instead of actually just sitting here working on something for myself. I guess really I am trying to find out who I am right now in this blogging world. Do I want to blog about my life? Blog my clothes? The very slow and unmotivated weight loss journey that I am on? Crafts? Books? There are just so many options and I don't know what to do.

Really my life has never been about any kind of control, I just wander aimlessly around waiting for the right thing to hit me at the right time. I hate to sit and rush something because it just feels forced and I know that it sounds forced. No one wants to read drivel that could simply be your own life. I'm not here to just sit and complain about what is going on in my life, but it is hard for me to let people into my personal life because there are so many things that just hurt to talk about. I know that this seems like no where but I am racing the battery right now and I see the screen starting to dim and that means that time is limited. I would like to get to bed before midnight tonight because it has been a few weeks since that has happened. My new smart phone is keeping me awake at night because now I have all these games that I can play at night instead of reading because I don't need a light for the phone. I have finished another book on my thirty before thirty and I guess that means I should sit down and right about what I thought. I need to check and see what books are on that list. I guess at night I could read Hard Times instead of playing games since I downloaded it on the books app.

I am going to try and do this a little more often. I would like to have more than a mass of posts at the beginning of the year, a smattering in the summer months and then this mad dash at the end of the year to make it seem like I don't care about it.

love ya!

Thinking out loud....

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about family. There are just so many things that you don't really think about until someone else says something to you about it.

Just_a_boy and I both are quite interested in history which leads you to the road of genealogy. Of course that right now just means using Google and whatever free resources there are on the internet. A recent check on, ancestry.com led me to a startling revelation on my family history, okay really not such a revelation but a realization of the past. I guess if your parents were born here in the states you just assume that your family has been here, that your family has always lived in America. On my dad's side of the family that just isn't true...I happen to be just a third generation American. That really isn't that far removed from the old country if you think about it, less than 100 years.

Trying this out...

I'm not sure how this is going to go. This post is coming from my phone. New phone means a new chance to learn how  everything that is simple and easy on your phone can actually be difficult and annoying. But I do like that this means that I now have more access to this pretty much everywhere. That doesn't mean that I will be blogging more it just means I have more options of when and where.

love ya!

30 before 30...

I keep seeing these kinds of posts and I liked the idea of pushing myself to read. So really here it goes this is my list of thirty books before I turn thirty and I am sure that I will be adding books to this list because well I already have. Actually as I was reading over the list I saw that there was one book that I had accidentally put on there twice which is no big deal because I already read a book since I started this and I have started another, both of which are not on the list. The rules which I promptly broke were that these were books that at some point I had started or where already in my possession. I also didn't want it to be that I read thirty books at random, that I would set a goal and just write down the books as I read them. All of these books I had when I made this list with the exception of Eat Pray Love. It took the place of the duplicate Catch 22 which I had not seen until tonight. 

So here goes...

1. Great Expectations April 29, 2016

2. Emma

3. The Savage Detectives

4. Hard Times

5. Sacred Hunger

6. Brave Men Gentle Heroes

7. Catch 22

8. The Hobbit

9. The Clue in the Diary

10. The Bear

11. Across Five Aprils

12. Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister oops! Not sure.

13. Doctor Zhivago

14. Quarterdeck & Bridge

15. Shiloh in Hell Before Night

16. The Gangs of New York

17. Hello Charlie

18. Tarnished Scalpels

19. Eat Pray Love  April 20, 2012

20. Women in Vietnam

21. Elizabeth the Struggle for the Throne

22. Pigs in Heaven

23. Animal Dreams

24. Debt of Honor

25. The Origin of Species

26. The Screwtape Letters

27. The Unknown Soldier

28. The Concrete Blond

29. Anne of Green Gables

30. Anne of Avonlea

Each of these books probably has a story as to why it is on the list and I will go into that with each post about the book.

love ya!

Sad news...

I do have sad news. This morning I came downstairs turned on the lights in the fish tank to find my more Dolly swimming upside down. She wasn't quite gone but we had to pull her out. She was doing her best to try and swim and not have us notice that she was swimming upside down. They always seem to float a little crooked but this was just too sad. She kept swimming into the bubbles to get flipped over but she just didn't have the stamina to make it.

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End of the month...

I really keep meaning to get on here and write something but I just haven't had the time or energy. I still don't even really have anything to say I just hate feeling like I've abandoned this. I'm doing good if I get to read some of the blogs that I follow on a regular basis. I've been spending a lot of time on Pinterest and that takes up way more time than you would think.

I am going to try and work on getting some more stuff up here in the next few weeks. I think I may have found some more chairs for my dining room table which means I have to get on cleaning up my house so that I can get  them in my dining room which is kinda small.

love ya!

New year New goals...

Yes I realize that we are almost a month into the new year but I think that you should really think about the goals that you are going to set and you can't really do that in December because there is just too much going on.

This year I am going on a bit of a health kick.

Partially this is because well when I got on the scale and it said 223.4 pounds that is way to much for my height.  I get all winded going on stairs and I do that probably 10 to 12 times a day on average. There are some days when that is way lower and then days where that may only cover the morning.

I got in a little late on it but there are a few of us at work that are all in on this. They pitched in and bought a scale that we keep upstairs And once a week we are going to weigh in. Hopefully this will be the kick in the pants that I need to lose this weight.

love ya!