Stink...

I hate coming up with something to blog about when I don't have a chance to write it down because I sit down at my computer and everything goes completely blank.

Of course I mainly have a chance to think at night before I fall asleep. My biggest goal right at this point is to try and figure out what to get everyone for Christmas. I keep getting my list together but it falls apart before I can finish making it.

I would also like to get my living room clean but that is going slow because I don't have any kind of storage. I really would like a nice piece for storage in my living room but that isn't going to happen any time soon. From what my husband says there isn't a lot of space in the attic and I don't know what I would be able to put up there. Storage is just kinda sparse in the house and I am not going to get a storage unit for anything that I have, it will just have to fit in the house that I have or well I don't need it.

I keep thinking that I'm going to start exercising but I'm just lazy. I hate getting hot and sweaty and I don't like how uncomfortable it feels when my heart rate starts to rise. I always feel terrible after exercising and that just sets everything off on a bad course. I don't understand how people can get up at the crack of dawn and go for a run or go exercise it just makes me feel icky and want to go to sleep.

love ya!

Incoherent...

There are so many things going on right now and I'm just not sure where I should start.

I'm really in the midst of a set of opening and closing doors and out of fear and stuck in almost an antichamber to these doors. I'm surrounded by all of these doors that are opening and closing and I don't know which ones I should be going to or if I should just stay where I am. I know that there are options in life for a reason but as of lately I've become a little gun shy of trying to change what I'm about and it scares me. There are so many things out there that are possibilities that I'm not ready for and it hurts so much.

I know that my thoughts aren't totally coherent right now but that just is how I feel. And the most frustrating thing I keep running into right now is the whole "I can't tell you what to do." That isn't a helpful statement. Please keep that in mind as you move forward with your decsion making.

love ya!

Love...

Love is one of those words that means so much to so many people.

It has really come up lately more in the some times you just do it because it is what is right. That love that you show your family. The getting up at the crack of dawn on your day off to go do something. Or going day after day to the hospital to sit with a loved one just so that they aren't there by themself.

1 John 3:18 "My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth."

The basis of this is on a shirt that my brother gave me that says "Love is the action."

That has been speaking to me a lot this week that that is how we should love those around us not by what we say but what we do for those around us. That really starts to hit home as we start the downhill trek towards Christmas and we see so much that we don't want to.

We will watch on the day after Thanksgiving as people push and shove and fight over cheap laptops and big screen tvs and it makes me sad. I can't even say less than 24 hours after the day where we are supposed to talk about all the things that we are thankful for are people so angry and hostile.

My goal for the remainder of this year is to show love more than I have in the last few months. To start to renew some hope in the human race. To remind people that there are still a few souls out there that are willing to do something not because of what they will get in the end but because they know at heart that they should love all no matter what.

And I promise that I am trying to work on my 30 before 30 list. I may have to pull it up and see what I should start trying to read.

love ya!

Wednesday

So far this week, I've gotten my dogs hooked on Ritz Crackers and mini marshmallows.

Yep Ritz Crackers. To the point where baby girl grabbed the open stick of crackers off the back of the couch and ran off with them.  Of course my dogs aren't the brightest. I watched baby boy run around with a ravioli stuck to his back.

There are a whole mess of things that I need to get done. Like washing the dishes. My kitchen is starting to look like one of those Febreze commercials minus the garbage which I need to put out since they pick up tomorrow. Luckily we are late enough on the route to be able to put it out as we head out the door.

I just have to make it to Saturday to work on my house for two whole days off!

love ya!