Thursday, May 5, 2016

30 Before 30...Great Expectations

Oh my goodness. This is one of those books that I've been reading since I was a freshman in high school. I think that we were supposed to read it during the Christmas break and I did my best to work on it but I just couldn't finish it.

This is one of those books that it starts to drag and there aren't any good action sequences to pick it up. There are some great characters that are classic.

Pip is a great character who you get to watch as they grow up. You see as he changes from a simple country boy to a man who realizes that there is more to life than money. He only realizes this after he comes into money, uses it irresponsibly, and then loses what little he had left. He loses the love of onr or two women.

I hate to spoil a book. I know that this is terrible review but it was a book that I struggled to read. I struggled the first time that I read it and on rereading this book I knew exactly how far I had gotten the first time. What I had read was a breeze on the second reading. I'm sure that if I did choose to read it again, it would be awesome.

The subtle love story was great and I love that for once the story doesn't end the way you think it would. I really only read it because I wanted to check it off my list and I wanted to finish it.

love ya!

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Feeling a little worse for wear...

I really am feeling worse for wear right now. I'm just a little tired and no matter what I do it just seems to get worse and... I just feel like I'm hitting the wall and I hate that feeling. Why does it seem like when you need to be at your best you always feel like you're at your worst?

It makes it hard for me to function and there is a small chance that when I feel like this, I seem to be a terrible person who cannot for any reason see the positive in the situation. Of course when you can't see the positive it's hard to be a nice person.

It doesn't help that for some reason three of our dogs were missing for a couple of days and appear to have been penned up at someone else's house. It frustrates me to no end because there is nothing that I can do about it. Of course it wouldn't be such a problem but when you have a seriously abused rescue dog things like that are huge setbacks in how she deals with us. Of course at the same time she hasn't been as skittish as I thought she would be when she finally came home. She spent most of last night sleeping in my clean clothes but she's good.

love ya!

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Five year plan...

I know that it sounds cliche but I have a five year plan that I'm starting to implement in 2016. I have goals and I want to make them happen and people are gonna have to deal with it.

I turned 30 this past summer and well it wasn't the best thing in the world nor was it the worst thing in the world. It was just another day. I got up like any other day, went to work and acted like it was no big deal. Then you think about all the things that have happened.

These are some of the things that have been on my mind with turning 30

I've had friendships that are in the 25 year range.

I've had a driver's license for 16 years.

I've been able to vote for 12 years.

I've been out of high school for 12 years.

I've been able to buy alcohol for 9 years.

I've had a college degree for 7 years.

I've been married for 5 years.

I've owned a house for 2 years.

But I don't feel like any of those things matter because I don't like where I am in my life and it's because of the decisions that I've made over and over again during these years. So this is the year that I make changes to make me feel good about where I am in my life.

Oh and don't worry, we're two months or so shy of 6 years

love ya!

Monday, January 4, 2016

New Year same old oopsy...

I apologize for the spam posts that show up occasionally.

I am still recovering from an email hack and I guess it means I need to figure out how to change the email post function to stop that from happening. So if you know how to eliminate that let me know. I know what it means. I need to just shut down that email account and stick with the gmail. It is probably for the best it just isn't something that I have planned to do.

That kinda transition hurts. I know it will because I will have to change how I work with several different things. It's been a long week and not sure how this month will play out. Doing inventory at work and it means that I'm constantly dusty and dirty and my poor hands have a skunky smell to them that I can't get rid of.

2016 is the year that I plan to get my stuff together. I say that every year but this year I'm really trying to make it happen. I've got to get on with working on my five year plan. Job and finances are the two biggest players in the five year plan. Major goal of the five year plan is to work on getting a master's degree. Which actually sent me into a bit of a tailspin in the summer. Not really ready to put those feelings into words but I'm gonna get there, part of this whole five year plan.

love ya!

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Changing who I am

I've spent a lot of  time this week really thinking about what  I want to do wiih the rest of my life. I've been a little out fo sorts and all over the map about that kinda stuff lately. Thinking about all the things that have happened and where I want to go from here.

Why is that the hardest thing to do? Just make a set of plans and move on from there. I guess it really isn't moving on from there but making those goals and dreams move forward. I'm working on changing parts of who I am because that seems to be the constant in all of this is me. I want to be a better person and move forward with life being a better person than what I am right at this moment.

I've been reading Danielle LaPorte's #truthbombs in my inbox every morning and spending the day thinking on them throughout the day. They are a great way to start thinking about yourself and chaging the way that you think.

I wish that I could organize my thoughts about this a little bit better. I think that this is one of the things that I'm gonna start working on because I realy would like to work on the blog a little bit more than I have been. Working on reading the books on my 30 by 30 list that didn't happen and working on my baking bucket list.

I know that changing myself is not something that happens over night and I'm personally doing good if I can get laundry and dishes done every night. I've had dishes in the sink for weeks and I really hate washing dishes and the water is pretty rough on dishwashers. I should probably get up and put the clothes in the dryer before they start to smell pretty bad.

love ya!

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Let's make a list...

There are a few things I'm ready to stop seeing on my social media feeds.

  • Cakes things in Jars--I seriously can't imagine that there are really as many uses for glass jars as we give them. But seriously I can't stand to see those stupid rainbow cakes in a glass jar. We get it you can make cake in jars. You can put cocktails in jars. You can put buttons in jars. You can put jars in the recycle bin.
  • Mug cakes--I don't know how people can eat those things. I've tried and failed many times to consume one. I've even tried different kinds and I just don't have the palate for them. I find them under cooked or super rubbery if you let them cool too much.
  • You'll be so amazed when this x does x with x videos--I can't stand watching a 5 minute video that could have been summed up with two sentences underneath the YouTube box.
  • People doing things because they will get all kinds of media attention instead of doing it out of the goodness of who they --I know that some of these people are honestly doing it as a good person but I can't believe that there are really that many people doing it for that reason. 
  • Big bare pregnant bellies--No one truly wants to see you in a pair of jeans and a sports bra/crop top and a humongous pregnant belly hanging out.Well I guess if you have a fetish like that you might but I don't. 
  • Fat shaming/skinny shaming--This one is such a sticky situation because it goes so much deeper than just the shaming.You tell a skinny girl that she shouldn't put up bikini pics and praise a fat girl for doing the same. They are showing the same amount of skin, covering the same areas of their bodies but we treat them completely different like one is shameful and the other is brave.
  • Sarcasm that I'm not sure is sarcasm--We've all been there when we a status and we just aren't sure whether it is serious or not because we all have that one person. Also don't dress people down who can't identify sarcasm. Someone get to creating a sarcasm font that is discernible from italics, you know something professional looking and workplace appropriate.
  • Speaking of statuses--I'm so sick of the ones that if you comment then you have to repost them or do something silly if you like them. I just click like to acknowledge that I'm not dead or missing or that I understand. No I don't like that a relative died but I've been there I know the feeling.
  • I miss X they've been gone X years, X months and X days--I understand sadness and mourning but I don't want to be bombarded by that on Facebook. I want to see funny cat videos and pictures of friends and family being happy. Keep it to a minimum but I have recently had times where there were 10 or 12 posts on my feed about missing a loved one or pet. That really doesn't make me want to bounce out of the bed in the morning.
  • Adjectives used out of context.--Buy a dictionary and look words up to see if what they mean is what you are really wanting to tell people. Being of a certain size running around in a bikini doesn't make you brave, brave are people who run into burning buildings. The ones who put their lives on the line for freedom. People who are barely old enough to vote and far too young to drink walking a patrol to keep people safe.
Oh by the way Happy Armed Forces Day!

love ya!

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Where is Friday?

Today has been a long day and it seems like I spent most of the day running around crazy and dodging buses and I just feel exhausted right now to the point where I can't even go to sleep. My feet are so sore that I can only hobble around and don't want to do anything other than sit on the couch and work on my crochet. I'm on blanket number three and then I just found out I may need to be making another one that I hadn't planned on.

I wish that I had the solace of knowing that tomorrow is Friday but after three Saturdays off I finally have to do my time. Of course I still don't know what I'm going to do next week because things aren't going to be any slower. I think today I even found myself under a bus driven by my idea it was really crazy.

love ya!