Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Changing who I am

I've spent a lot of  time this week really thinking about what  I want to do wiih the rest of my life. I've been a little out fo sorts and all over the map about that kinda stuff lately. Thinking about all the things that have happened and where I want to go from here.

Why is that the hardest thing to do? Just make a set of plans and move on from there. I guess it really isn't moving on from there but making those goals and dreams move forward. I'm working on changing parts of who I am because that seems to be the constant in all of this is me. I want to be a better person and move forward with life being a better person than what I am right at this moment.

I've been reading Danielle LaPorte's #truthbombs in my inbox every morning and spending the day thinking on them throughout the day. They are a great way to start thinking about yourself and chaging the way that you think.

I wish that I could organize my thoughts about this a little bit better. I think that this is one of the things that I'm gonna start working on because I realy would like to work on the blog a little bit more than I have been. Working on reading the books on my 30 by 30 list that didn't happen and working on my baking bucket list.

I know that changing myself is not something that happens over night and I'm personally doing good if I can get laundry and dishes done every night. I've had dishes in the sink for weeks and I really hate washing dishes and the water is pretty rough on dishwashers. I should probably get up and put the clothes in the dryer before they start to smell pretty bad.

love ya!

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Let's make a list...

There are a few things I'm ready to stop seeing on my social media feeds.

  • Cakes things in Jars--I seriously can't imagine that there are really as many uses for glass jars as we give them. But seriously I can't stand to see those stupid rainbow cakes in a glass jar. We get it you can make cake in jars. You can put cocktails in jars. You can put buttons in jars. You can put jars in the recycle bin.
  • Mug cakes--I don't know how people can eat those things. I've tried and failed many times to consume one. I've even tried different kinds and I just don't have the palate for them. I find them under cooked or super rubbery if you let them cool too much.
  • You'll be so amazed when this x does x with x videos--I can't stand watching a 5 minute video that could have been summed up with two sentences underneath the YouTube box.
  • People doing things because they will get all kinds of media attention instead of doing it out of the goodness of who they --I know that some of these people are honestly doing it as a good person but I can't believe that there are really that many people doing it for that reason. 
  • Big bare pregnant bellies--No one truly wants to see you in a pair of jeans and a sports bra/crop top and a humongous pregnant belly hanging out.Well I guess if you have a fetish like that you might but I don't. 
  • Fat shaming/skinny shaming--This one is such a sticky situation because it goes so much deeper than just the shaming.You tell a skinny girl that she shouldn't put up bikini pics and praise a fat girl for doing the same. They are showing the same amount of skin, covering the same areas of their bodies but we treat them completely different like one is shameful and the other is brave.
  • Sarcasm that I'm not sure is sarcasm--We've all been there when we a status and we just aren't sure whether it is serious or not because we all have that one person. Also don't dress people down who can't identify sarcasm. Someone get to creating a sarcasm font that is discernible from italics, you know something professional looking and workplace appropriate.
  • Speaking of statuses--I'm so sick of the ones that if you comment then you have to repost them or do something silly if you like them. I just click like to acknowledge that I'm not dead or missing or that I understand. No I don't like that a relative died but I've been there I know the feeling.
  • I miss X they've been gone X years, X months and X days--I understand sadness and mourning but I don't want to be bombarded by that on Facebook. I want to see funny cat videos and pictures of friends and family being happy. Keep it to a minimum but I have recently had times where there were 10 or 12 posts on my feed about missing a loved one or pet. That really doesn't make me want to bounce out of the bed in the morning.
  • Adjectives used out of context.--Buy a dictionary and look words up to see if what they mean is what you are really wanting to tell people. Being of a certain size running around in a bikini doesn't make you brave, brave are people who run into burning buildings. The ones who put their lives on the line for freedom. People who are barely old enough to vote and far too young to drink walking a patrol to keep people safe.
Oh by the way Happy Armed Forces Day!

love ya!

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Where is Friday?

Today has been a long day and it seems like I spent most of the day running around crazy and dodging buses and I just feel exhausted right now to the point where I can't even go to sleep. My feet are so sore that I can only hobble around and don't want to do anything other than sit on the couch and work on my crochet. I'm on blanket number three and then I just found out I may need to be making another one that I hadn't planned on.

I wish that I had the solace of knowing that tomorrow is Friday but after three Saturdays off I finally have to do my time. Of course I still don't know what I'm going to do next week because things aren't going to be any slower. I think today I even found myself under a bus driven by my idea it was really crazy.

love ya!

Monday, March 9, 2015

So lazy...

I am so lazy. Soooo lazy when it comes to do anything important or getting on the ball. I almost immediately started working on my baking bucket list after writing it. It has been over a month since I made these and took them to work. They were a hard sell for the people I work...a little too frou-frou.

The first thing that I chose to make was meringues. These in particular were Kool Aid Meringues. It was a little bit of a cheat to use this but I wanted a flavor to them. These were made with the Strawberry Crush mix-ins.

They were terrible. I think that I may not have baked them long enough. The bottoms were slightly brown but the  centers were a little bit on the moist side and the longer that they sat the funkier they started to smell. Of course I have a bit of a sensitive nose when it comes to certains scents and to me after three or four days they seemed to smell a little slobbery.

The recipe is straight forward. It took a little bit of time to get my egg whites whipped enough in the stand mixer mainly I think because of the sheer amount or the lack therefore of. I also think that I could have mixed them up a little better the color was a little streaky, light pink with darker red stripes. I think that the picture above was about how many that it made. I just dropped them by the spoonful instead of piping them simply because of the mess and the lazy person in me that didn't want to do all of that.

This is where I found the recipe if you want to try them for yourself.

love ya!

Monday, January 26, 2015

Baking Bucket List

I've decided that since my 30 before 30 book list has been a complete failure I would have a better chance of working on something else like a baking bucket list.

As much as I love to read I like to spend time in the kitchen and this is one of those things that really doesn't have to have a timeline to make it happen. I have a real kitchen so that I actually have some room to work in the kitchen without freezing to death or being in someone else's way. So here goes with the baking bucket list of many different things.

1. Challah Bread
2. Meringues----1/31/2015
3. Macaroons-French
4. Lasagna
5. Lemon Meringue Pie
6. Doughnuts
7. Souffle
8. Angel Food Cake
9. Boston Creme Pie
10. Chocolate Cream Pie
11. Pasta
12. Cake Balls
13. Chocolate Truffles
14. Eggrolls
15. Victoria Sponge
16. Red Velvet Cake
17. Coffee Cake
18. Cheesecake
19. Peppermint Patties
20. Trifle
21. Italian Wedding Soup
22. Curry
23. Potstickers
24. Strawberry Pie
25. Kool Aid Pie
26. Pasta Carbonara
27. Baked Spaghetti in Garlic Bread
28. Ravioli
29. Scallops
30. Marshmallows
31. Ice Cream
32. Beer Cupcake
33. Pavlova
34. Fudge
35. Swiss Roll
36. Fruit Tart
37. Layered Jello
38. Ice Cream/Frozen Pie
39. Ice Cream Cake
40. "The Grey Stuff"
41. Shortbread
42. Chocolate Sugar Cookies
43. Cookie Cake
44. Pie Cookies
45. Black and White Cookies
46. Oreos
47. Places You'll Go Cookies
48. Molasses Cookies
49. Gingersnaps
50. Turkey
51. Thin Mints
52. Pretzel
53. Croissant
54. Salsa
55. Spaghetti Sauce
56. Shrimp Parmesan
57. Orange Chicken
58. Taquitos
59. Chocolate Cheesecake
60. Japanese Cheesecake
61. Crepe Cake
62. Layer Cake
63. Mousse
64. Elephant Ear Bread
65. Pancakes
66. Avalanche Bars
67. Rice Krispie Treats
68. Amish Egg Noodles
69. Marinated Cheese
70. Pineapple Upside Down Cake
71. Coca Cola Cake
72. Heaven and Hell Cake
73. Tiramisu
74. Garlic Knots
75. Soft Honey Oat Bread
76. No Knead French Bread
77. Teddy Bear Bread
78. Lemon Brownies
79. Cinnamon Rolls
80. Molten Cake
81. Chocolate Wasted Cake
82. Wacky Cake
83. Lemon Cake
84. Magic Cake
85. Filled Cupcake
86. Champagne Cupcakes
87. Chocolate Covered Strawberries
88. Sweet Hawaiian Bread
89. Monkey Bread
90. Brazilian Cheese Bread
91. Key Lime Pie
92. Smores Bars/Baked Smores
93. Chicken Tortilla Soup
94. Tortellini Soup
95. Bang Bang Shrimp Pasta
96. One Pot Spaghetti
97. Macaroni and Cheese Cooked in Milk
98. Caprese Garlic Bread
99. Pecan Pie
100. Croquembouche
101. Tortillas
102. Pralines
103. Risotto

love ya!!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Back at home...

It has been a long week and it doesn't seem like things are getting better or that they are to a point where I really think that they are getting better.

I've been spending a lot of time on Pinterest lamenting all of the things that I haven't made that I have pinned. So far it seems like 2015 is going to be the year of shoulda, coulda, woulda and so far is all full of regrets. I've been thinking about all of the things that I haven't been able to accomplish.

I feel like I'm dragging myself up a hill through mud and muck. It doesn't help that at work I'm doing inventory which affords me a lot of time with my thoughts that alternates with hoping that no one is going to come in and bug me. It usually means that I start my year in a foul mood because of how long it takes me to get done with my inventory mainly because I refuse to let people help me out. It bugs me to have to stop and explain to someone else how to do it especially when they should already know what they are doing but it never fails that they don't know what they are doing.

Right now I have to get back to laundry and dishes then find something to slather my hands into to make them feel a little bit more like human hands and not sandpaper. Also must spend less time on my phone as my desire to play trivia crack has put what I refer to as a bubble in my wrist.

love ya!

Thursday, August 28, 2014


Right now I am in the midst of rewriting a character. I've been thinking about how some times a character isn't really out of the box. They are just like you and me, there isn't anything that would make them stand out. Do we alienate the minority so as not to alienate the majority? I've been taking this as a time to really branch out into what I want the character to be. To give them the opportunities to do things that I'm not capable of doing.

After I work on my Pinterest board a little bit longer I will link to it. Right now I am toying with the idea of putting my main character in a wheelchair but I know that will change some pivotal moments. I guess I will have to find balance between story line and character importance and really I think that what the character brings to the story and to the reader is more important than a cheesy scene on the staircase. If I put a character in a wheelchair do they have to have a back story? Is that insensitive? I guess until I work on that quandary it isn't important. I alo would have to have a little extra time to work on writing. Right now I am working on a deep purge of my house. I would like to not have to haul a bunch of stuff to another house. The only thing that I want to do is haul that bunch of stuff to Goodwill.

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