Last one...

This is probably the last post of the year that I meant to write last night and was kicked off the internet repeatedly. Been watching a few movies on tv and they have really made me think about where I want to take my writing. All the stories that you see follow the same pattern. The stories are all from the same perspective. The girl in in love with a guy who has no clue that she exists and if he does, he treats her like a little sister. Someone she knows comes in and steals him away fro her. Then she just goes along with it all, even though inside she is dying and being torn apart. Torn between her feelings for him and for her friend. Eventually the stress and strain causes her to crack and ruin everything. Because after all of these years of hiding her true feelings she lets it all out. You have this period where no one talks to each other, but then all of a sudden they make up like nothing ever happened, that no feelings were hurt. We all know in reality that this isn't really how it happens. Especially that complete Romeo and Juliet sorry story and confessing that he's been a fool.

I guess for me that just doesn't satisfy. I know that life doesn't wrap up cleanly like that. There are other things that happen and usually after it gets worse, it gets worse again and then after that it starts to get better slowly. There is pain and suffering, grief and depression and eating of all the food that can be reached.

What I really want to see is the same story but told from the male perspectives. Maybe as women we shouldn't fear having a straight male friend. I want to see two male friends fall for the same girl. So pretty much the story in Made of Honor but not so cliche of finding some tall, dark and handsome stranger in a foreign country. But to see one man silently court his best girl without her ever realizing what he is doing, not to only discover that he loves her when his friend swoops in and starts courting her. To see the same struggle women have as the perfect one sweep your friend off her feet instead of you. Maybe one day I will be able to accomplish this.

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Winter blues...

I'm a terrible person because I opened this window almost 20 minutes ago and I got busy working on other things. I hate this time of the year. It is not even seven pm and it has been pitch dark outside for over 30 minutes. It feels like it is midnight and I can't handle it. I spend 95% of my day inside and it is almost dark by the time I get home and I only really get to spend one day outside and this week I'm going to spend it on a bus of some sort going to Dallas and then coming back. Then there also happens to be nothing on tv tonight. I'm stuck watching Amish Mafia because there really isn't anything on.

I'm still working on doing the dishes and trying to figure out what to do for dinner. Trying to figure out what kind of tree I'm going to put up. Most of my lack of get up and go has to do with my lack of sunlight. I suffer quite a bit from a lack of sun in the winter. I just want to spend time in the sun because this is one of the few times a year that the sun is tolerable in Texas.

I hate Pier 1 commercials because they show the cutest stuff on them and I have NEVER found any of those things in the store. I only occasionally venture into the store and usually because I have seen awesome things that I want to buy on the commercial. I happen to love penguins and they have such cute penguin things. Anyway that really doesn't matter that was only because I saw a commercial.

Working with leftovers and those are some of the most difficult to work with because you've already seen them and if they weren't great the first time round it is hard to make them great a second time.

Back to the Amish Mafia where do they come up with these kinds of shows. There are just so many things that you watch on tv that you wonder why they thought it would be a great idea to put it on tv. The sad thing is that so many people will watch it and continue to watch no matter what happens.

I hate winter and it being cold. I need to go sit on the floor in the kitchen and the floor is just so cold I can already feel the cold even though I'm sitting on the couch. Going to suck it up and go work on the kitchen.

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Tweaking...

I have been doing a little bit of tweaking on the overall feel of the blog and I'm still not liking the font and the color. The size to me still seems a little bit too small and awkward. That will just have to wait until things slow down some more. Right now Kitten is sitting sleeping on the back of the couch because she couldn't find a place that would work for her...like my chest. She must think that she is a kitten because three or four times she climbed up on my chest and then went around my shoulders and try again. I'm just afraid that she is going to fall off the couch. I think that the relationship we have with Kitten and KitKat is the best that you can have with a cat. Someone else feeds them, they sleep outside, we are like the grandparents. We give them catnip let them come in the house, climb on the couch, let them act like they have no manners and then when they are ready to go outside they go and stand by the door and meow until we let them out. Except for KitKat who tries to sleep under our dining room table and then goes all spaghetti cat on me and then gets angry when I try to pick her up to take her out. She knows if she hisses that I will  let her go and then she will walk to the corner of the couch where Just_a_boy is sitting and wait for him to tell her that she has to go out. Eventually she will come to the door and wait for me to open it and then she goes out.

See you again later maybe I can get some pictures of Kitten and KitKat.

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Trying this out...

I am going to try this once and see if it works. I have never done this before and this may be the way to go. I probably have noticed before that there is a schedule option over on the right hand side of the post.

So if all goes well this will post while I am at dinner tomorrow night.

I have been a little disappointed in myself this year in not keeping up with my posting and leaving a whole lot unsaid. I have to get my Christmas cards address and written up and in the mail this week or they are not going to make it to everywhere they need to go. I also will probably need to buy more stamps in general especially if the prices are going to go up soon which is no surprise. I am probably going to start doing a little planning for the new year soon and will be putting it up here so that I can have someone keeping me accountable for what I plan on doing. I know that there are a few on the list already.

1. More reading 30 before 30 is going very slow...I think that I have finished just one book on the list.
2. More writing
3. The house will be clean by summer.
4. More blogging

Trying to keep away from the completely obvious spend less money exercise more...big deal those are no longer New Year's resolutions those are the lies that we all tell ourselves and rarely ever follow through on.

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Just Crazy...

It has finally gotten a little into the winter weather mode here in Texas. It was really nice to come out to 'Texas Snow' aka frost which is usually as close as it comes to having snow where I live. I will admit that it did snow about two years ago and it was so amazing to see it actually snow. Of course snow here in Texas is maybe an inch two if we're really good and it comes at night when you can't see it or enjoy it. So to actually wake up from a nap and see that there is snow falling it makes you smile and want to run around all silly like and play and try to catch snowflakes on your tongue.

This is going to be a crazy week so this will probably be the only post that I can hammer out before the weekend. Got a birthday dinner, Christmas party, football game and Christmas shopping to do before  Sunday. It would be better if I could actually get my list together so that I have a plan. That to me is the most important thing is having a plan when it comes to doing all the Christmas shopping in one swoop. Of course I would have to know what to get my husband. He is one of the most difficult people to shop for, well men in general are hard to shop for. They just make it difficult with telling you that they don't need anything, that they don't want anything, having you is all that they need or just not giving you an answer in general. 

And having two teenage brothers does not make it any easier. I hate buying clothes for people or gift cards. Because with gift cards you are telling them exactly how much you think of them. Then I ask my brother what he wants he tells me a hippo. My 18 year old brother wants a hippo for Christmas. What am I supposed to do with that information. I told him that he is getting a Hungry Hungry Hippo game for Christmas. I always wanted that game and never got it. I had one friend who had it and she never wanted to play and the pink hippo was broken. I always wanted to play with that hippo and it was broken. I also always wanted the game Pretty Pretty Princess and I'm not sure if they even make that game in anymore. I will have to look at that later and see. Then I have to figure out what to get for everyone else. Makes things to difficult my family does. Only two people or maybe three have presents that are ready to wrapped and I don't really like to wrap presents either. Especially if there are those presents that are really obvious what they are. 

I guess from looking around the Internet that we are closing in on 12 days until Christmas and that is just 

crazy. I am still having a cow about how close to Christmas it is and how little I have done. 

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Getting close to Christmas...

It is getting close to Christmas and once again I am no closer to having my house clean and in a state to entertain. Not that there is a lot of room to entertain people in our tiny apartment but there has also been rumors that there is a fence in our near future. But right now I can only hope that it will happen before the end of the year but it will probably not happen. Anyway I have to get back to dishes.

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Distracted state of mind...

I was talking last time about the complicated love story and I ran aground somewhere else because I was busy watching what was on tv. That happens quite about around here. Right now there are so many other things that I need to be doing like laundry and dishes but I would rather be here on the couch covered up with a blanket and watching Top Chef Seattle reruns. I will admit that I was devastated that I had no clue that they were even on in a new season.

There have been so many things running through my head with the holiday season on us already and there being so little coolness in the air. I think that we are in the mid to upper 70s for the last couple of weeks with a few peaks into the 80s. That is terrible but not uncommon for Christmas in Texas. There are many Christmases that I remember running around my grandparents' yard in shorts with my cousins.

I am already distracted and will be back later to write some more. Hopefully I will be a little more focused that my current distracted state. Things are a little up in the air right now.

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The complicated love story...

I really can't believe that it has been close to a month since I was on her. There have been a lot of things going through my mind about what I want to write about. I've been pondering things like what does it mean to write the great American Novel, the rush of the last quarter holidays and clothes. I know some really heavy stuff there.

I've been reading on Doctor Zhivago for quite awhile now and know that some of the major problems I have with that book is the alternating and intertwined stories that at times can be difficult to follow, I think that the only reason I have been able to follow it because of a severe love for that movie. I think about that quite a bit when I am writing because I love the complicated story but also the complicated love story.

The complicated love story is one that always impresses me and seems to make critics and readers think that a novel tends to be on the trashy side because of that. Look at the great European novels, they are complicated and so well written there is no trade off. Hatred of a complicated novel comes from an inability to understand or even to keep up with what is going on. In reality life is complicated and that means that love is going to be complicated. I will have to come back to this because I have gotten a little distracted on Facebook.

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