I made a mistake...

I made a mistake.

I took a new job and I don't feel like it's the right one.

I shouldn't have done it.

I really shouldn't have done it.

I haven't even signed a contract and I already regret saying yes.

It was a stupid mistake that I made without thinking.

I was desperate.

Desperation makes for bad decisions.

I think that it was a truly bad decision.

I don't know what to do.

Happy Friday!

I have to admit that it feels good to know that today is Friday. There are a few things that I had meant to accomplish this week and well that just fell through.  That however is nothing unusual for me.

I like lists. I really like to make lists. It makes me feel that I have accomplished things. Especially at work. I like to know what I need to accomplish in a certain amount of time. Like when my boss is gone he will usually leave us a list of things that each person needs to accomplish. In those cases it also helps us to keep each other in line. If you know what someone else needs to get done then you can encourage them when they are not doing anything.

I spend more time making lists to try and get myself to accomplish things but they don't always help. And it doesn't help that it seems like all of a sudden my spell check doesn't seem to work on anything.

I'm getting really sick of people complaining about how much student debt they have. In my very bold opinion this really seems to be a case of parents not telling their children no. If you can't afford to go to a school without spending a fortune that you obviously don't have maybe you should rethink what you are planning to do. I graduated with $14,500 in student loan debt on three different loans and two different interest rates. I am half way through my repayment period and have less than $600 left to pay on them. In only 32 payments I have paid almost $14,000 back and I don't complain about it. During that time I've also paid off 29 of 60 payments on a car and put a down payment on a house and you know what, I'm still working in a job where I punch the clock.

I don't have the cushy corner office that most people are expecting when they graduate because they've picked a career based on those highly inflated starting salary lists. I've done a lot I never thought I'd do to make the rent like vacuum my boss's office or carry rocking chairs in and out of the building. I answer phones and answer mundane and stupid questions. You do what you have to do. I still haven't gotten the job that I wanted but I am working hard to accomplish that goal. I'm hoping that soon I can start posting pictures of my classroom, keep that in your thoughts if you want to.

Every once in awhile you have to make concessions about college and a job. Some times you have to put pride aside annd take a job

love ya!

Catching up

I've been trying to sit down all week and work on blogging but it just hasn't happened, mainly because it is hot and when I say hot I mean hot like frying an egg on the sidewalk kinda hot. I haven't even had a chance to look at what the weather is going to do for the rest of the week. I know that the last time I did see the weather there were seven days of triple digits and that is all I have to know. There really doesn't seem to be an end in sight and now there is Saharan dust in the air to top it off. I've had enough water that I'm surprised that I haven't floated away. It seems like it doesn't matter how much I have, I'm still thirsty and still hot all the time.

Things around here haven't been going anywhere mainly because at five o'clock I just want to get home as fast as I can to the sweet relief of air conditioning. I don't even want to go to the grocery store and probably won't do it until I run out of milk, bread and eggs, which wouldn't be bad but I only picked up milk the last time I was at the store because I had eggs and bread. So over a week and I'm down to less than a quarter of a loaf of bread and four eggs. Or I will go when I have to buy dog food, dishwasher detergent and stuff to make laundry soap. (Dog food will win out I'm pretty sure.) I say that because I can't feed my dog table scraps because well my poor sidewalk will pay for it. (If anyone knows how to keep a dog from pooping on the sidewalk let me know.)

I've gotten a few boxes cleaned out and hopefully will be getting a few more this week so that my brother can pack up some kitchen items for his first apartment. So really no pressure what so ever on the unpacking. I have some empty boxes on the porch but their integrity is not the best since they've been there for a few weeks and are covered in house paint. We did get the outside of our house painted which is awesome. We now have to go back and do some touchups and paint all the trim.

I can't keep caught up with anything and I mean anything. I'm doing my best just to read my email and check my texts. Or like today when I got slammed all of a sudden with a bunch of updates and what not on my phone and I know that some of them were from Sunday. It was bizarre and a bit scary, similar to what I experienced a few weeks ago when my email got hacked and there were about 75 bounce back emails that came all at once. Thankfully I have a ton of contacts that aren't any good any more, of course then I got a whole bunch of emails telling me that I was sending spam. It was mortifying and I'm trying to get over it.

Hopefully I can get my DVR cleaned out by the weekend so I could maybe watch something on tv when it is on. I am however spoiled to being able to fast forward through the commercials.

I was glad to see that Double Divas started a new season last night. It totally freaks my husband out when I watch it because of all the squealing.

Have to go see who is coming back on Masterchef.

love ya!