I started on a bit of a tangent at the end of my last post because of the impending Christmas season. It makes me nauseous to think that Christmas is 17/18 weeks away. That in no time flat we will be faced with ugly little Santas peaking around the corners of aisles.
I can't stand to see Santas. I can't even stand the thought of forcing a child to sit on a mall Santa's lap. It just gives me the creeps and takes away from the holiday season. At Christmas I was always more concerned with getting to ride in the train than to see Santa, now there is no train they just have an ice skating rink...or they did. I'm not sure if they still have it since there is now an ice skating rink in town. But I loved the train. It was a just a giant train made out of that hard plastic. I have no idea how much it cost but I loved it. I have no idea why that was always my favorite part of Christmas.
I loved watching Grandma getting out the stockings for everyone and hanging them up on the bookshelf in the office. Knowing that I was going to get a kitty cat stocking hanger and that my cousin would get a puppy dog for our matching Raggedy Ann and Andy stockings.
But I really just hate the way that Christmas is so commercialized now. I can't even stand getting out my own Christmas decorations and putting them up for people to see because there just isn't any desire in my heart or mind to do so. I love to go to Hobby Lobby and look at the Christmas ornaments that are separated out by color. I used to love going to the department stores and look at all the Christmas trees that were just covered in ornaments and no matter what they always looked beautiful. Now there's two trees covered in ornaments shoved over in a corner with some gaudy Santas and nutcrackers.
love ya!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Things change....
I've never been a big fan of change and right now it's making me the worst person in the world to be around. I can guarantee that no one really wants to be around me right now because it just isn't a good time to be around me.
I'm not really one to handle change well and it is taking its toll on me right now and everyone around me. My husband seems to be the one taking the brunt of it right now and it's making my marriage a little awkward. I've done almost nothing in the past few days more than eat, sleep and shower and watch plenty of Disney channel. (I know that makes me very lame.)
I spent most of the morning taping all of the cards that we got from the wedding into my wedding book which now will not close. I then picked up all the bills that were on the floor but I still don't know where the light bill is. And all I can do is try to figure out how I'm going to pay the light bill for the next three months.
Right now I feel like it's the bottom of the ninth, down by one run, bases loaded, two outs and I'm up to bat. All I want to do is cry which usually causes more problems than it solves.
I want to know when life slows down or is it like this everyday for the rest of our lives until we die. Because if this is the way that everyday until I die is going to be I'm ready to throw in the towel already. I'm just sick of always being on the ropes fighting to get back to center.
I'm getting to a point where I just feel like I'm not ever going to make any kind of difference in the world. That I'm just going to be one of those nameless faceless people that are all around you but you have no idea what they do or what they mean to the world.
And everytime I turn around people are already talking about and getting ready for Christmas and its 17 or 18 weeks away. People get over it. I know that it's one of those wonderful times of year but starting it in October takes away the specialness of Christmas.
love ya!
I'm not really one to handle change well and it is taking its toll on me right now and everyone around me. My husband seems to be the one taking the brunt of it right now and it's making my marriage a little awkward. I've done almost nothing in the past few days more than eat, sleep and shower and watch plenty of Disney channel. (I know that makes me very lame.)
I spent most of the morning taping all of the cards that we got from the wedding into my wedding book which now will not close. I then picked up all the bills that were on the floor but I still don't know where the light bill is. And all I can do is try to figure out how I'm going to pay the light bill for the next three months.
Right now I feel like it's the bottom of the ninth, down by one run, bases loaded, two outs and I'm up to bat. All I want to do is cry which usually causes more problems than it solves.
I want to know when life slows down or is it like this everyday for the rest of our lives until we die. Because if this is the way that everyday until I die is going to be I'm ready to throw in the towel already. I'm just sick of always being on the ropes fighting to get back to center.
I'm getting to a point where I just feel like I'm not ever going to make any kind of difference in the world. That I'm just going to be one of those nameless faceless people that are all around you but you have no idea what they do or what they mean to the world.
And everytime I turn around people are already talking about and getting ready for Christmas and its 17 or 18 weeks away. People get over it. I know that it's one of those wonderful times of year but starting it in October takes away the specialness of Christmas.
love ya!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Random...
This is just going to be one of those random getting everything out of my head posts.
Why is summer now a totally new season on television? What happened to the days of catching up on what I missed?
Why is a meal that is fruit and carbs considered a healthy lunchtime meal for kids? Isn't that just setting them up for a sugar spike and then a sugar crash?
Why do people have so much stuff on their blog? Ads and this and that and so many things that make it so cluttered and hard to focus on the centerpiece...the actual thoughts and materials that you want to display?
What makes a blog so noteworthy? What makes it the blog that people are driven to? That they can't go to bed at night if they haven't stopped by to see what their favorite blogger has put up for the world to see?
Speaking of blogs, I've noticed that there are a lot of people that are really driven by the number of comments that they have at the end of the day. To me that just isn't what this is about. This is about putting all the thoughts in my head in some kind of order that makes sense and if people want to throw in their two cents that is fine. I don't have to listen to what they say, take it to heart or even acknowledge it. I probably will acknowledge it though.
Oh I really want to be crafty again. I want the time to make those cute things that I see over on Etsy. I really do. I want to be able to finish one of the many crafty things that are floating around our apartment.
I would like to be able to hold a thought in my head longer than two seconds. Which may be why I'm trying to do this right now. I'm not sure if it's just that I have so many things going on in my head that I can't think or what it is.
What happened to the time when you could eat whatever you want and not have the guilt that comces with eating anything and everything? When it was okay to eat and McDonalds and it was okay to eat a Pop Tart for breakfast. Those are the days that I miss because I have a box of Pop Tarts on the top of my fridge that are calling my name to free them from those shiny wrappers.
Then there is the whole image thing which I can't even begin to go into right now because that is a committment that I am not quite ready to make right now.
love ya!
Why is summer now a totally new season on television? What happened to the days of catching up on what I missed?
Why is a meal that is fruit and carbs considered a healthy lunchtime meal for kids? Isn't that just setting them up for a sugar spike and then a sugar crash?
Why do people have so much stuff on their blog? Ads and this and that and so many things that make it so cluttered and hard to focus on the centerpiece...the actual thoughts and materials that you want to display?
What makes a blog so noteworthy? What makes it the blog that people are driven to? That they can't go to bed at night if they haven't stopped by to see what their favorite blogger has put up for the world to see?
Speaking of blogs, I've noticed that there are a lot of people that are really driven by the number of comments that they have at the end of the day. To me that just isn't what this is about. This is about putting all the thoughts in my head in some kind of order that makes sense and if people want to throw in their two cents that is fine. I don't have to listen to what they say, take it to heart or even acknowledge it. I probably will acknowledge it though.
Oh I really want to be crafty again. I want the time to make those cute things that I see over on Etsy. I really do. I want to be able to finish one of the many crafty things that are floating around our apartment.
I would like to be able to hold a thought in my head longer than two seconds. Which may be why I'm trying to do this right now. I'm not sure if it's just that I have so many things going on in my head that I can't think or what it is.
What happened to the time when you could eat whatever you want and not have the guilt that comces with eating anything and everything? When it was okay to eat and McDonalds and it was okay to eat a Pop Tart for breakfast. Those are the days that I miss because I have a box of Pop Tarts on the top of my fridge that are calling my name to free them from those shiny wrappers.
Then there is the whole image thing which I can't even begin to go into right now because that is a committment that I am not quite ready to make right now.
love ya!
Stink...
I will have to try again because blogger just ate my post. It would have been nice for it to acknowledge whether or not it was good.
love ya!
love ya!
I don't understand...
I've spent most of the day looking at blogs and trying to figure a few things out which usually is just dangerous territory for most of the world.
There has been a lot of upheavel at work lately and it's causing a bit of chaos that is fun to sit and watch. There have been a few positions that have come open and a few that may be coming open soon if things don't straighten up. You're an adult you shouldn't have to have someone else hold your hand everyday when you do your job that you've been doing for over 6 months. That just isn't the way that a company should run with the boss always having to stand over you telling you how to do your job step by step.
There are just so many things that have been on my mind lately. Like why is summer now considered another season of television instead of a chance for me to catch up on everything that I didn't get to see during the regular season because I was watching something on another network. Because we are too cheap to have a DVR and the VCR has fallen out of favor with everyone. But I still want one. I really really want to get a DVD/VCR combo for Christmas. So far that's the Christmas list and Alice in Wonderland on DVD. I have a few movies that are on tape that I really want to watch without having to go to my mom's to watch them.
I do have to say that I'm a little sad about having to train someone to take my place at work but it's been good. It's given me a little bit less stress because it just does. I'm finally getting to show someone who is more than capable of doing it. Other people that I work with are not capable of even covering for me while I'm at lunch.
I don't understand why everyone I work with think that is okay for them to skip lunch. Not the skipping eating, the skipping clocking out for an hour, so that they get overtime. Everyone is supposed to take an hour for lunch and one day off a week and no one seems to care about that. It frustrates me because our boss has told everyone that isn't an option to work through lunch just because you want to and especially so that you can get off early. That makes me so frustrated because they do that all the time, leave early and then we don't have anyone to help in that last hour.
love ya!
There has been a lot of upheavel at work lately and it's causing a bit of chaos that is fun to sit and watch. There have been a few positions that have come open and a few that may be coming open soon if things don't straighten up. You're an adult you shouldn't have to have someone else hold your hand everyday when you do your job that you've been doing for over 6 months. That just isn't the way that a company should run with the boss always having to stand over you telling you how to do your job step by step.
There are just so many things that have been on my mind lately. Like why is summer now considered another season of television instead of a chance for me to catch up on everything that I didn't get to see during the regular season because I was watching something on another network. Because we are too cheap to have a DVR and the VCR has fallen out of favor with everyone. But I still want one. I really really want to get a DVD/VCR combo for Christmas. So far that's the Christmas list and Alice in Wonderland on DVD. I have a few movies that are on tape that I really want to watch without having to go to my mom's to watch them.
I do have to say that I'm a little sad about having to train someone to take my place at work but it's been good. It's given me a little bit less stress because it just does. I'm finally getting to show someone who is more than capable of doing it. Other people that I work with are not capable of even covering for me while I'm at lunch.
I don't understand why everyone I work with think that is okay for them to skip lunch. Not the skipping eating, the skipping clocking out for an hour, so that they get overtime. Everyone is supposed to take an hour for lunch and one day off a week and no one seems to care about that. It frustrates me because our boss has told everyone that isn't an option to work through lunch just because you want to and especially so that you can get off early. That makes me so frustrated because they do that all the time, leave early and then we don't have anyone to help in that last hour.
love ya!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Been a long week...
It has been a seriously long two weeks at work. I spent most of Saturday morning on Etsy looking at all kinds of goodies and it makes me want to get my house clean so that the creative juices can come out. My house is a disaster zone and I hope to get that going in the next week so that I can get all the creative energy gone.
love ya!
love ya!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Monday....
Yep like the song says, "just another manic Monday" now its not one of my favorite songs but it is the truth. There is so much to do and so little time to do it. I'm trying to figure out why life hits you like a ton of bricks. There is no easing into it, it's just like bam life.
Last week we had to buy a new car. That's one of the worst things in the world to have to do all of a sudden. It was like out of nowhere we had to get a new car. And it wouldn't have been so bad if we didn't have to have two cars. If we had been able to put it off for a few months it would have been better but then again that is not how life goes. Now I'm stuck in a frantic race against a financial clock to find a job. Trying to figure out how to get pennies out of everything that we have. I'm not sure if it's going to work. If anyone has tips I would love to know how to do it.
Its bad when you find yourself googling how to make money online. Which is kind of a pain in the butt to figure out what you can do that isn't going to cost you out the tail end. I really have taken to filling out any and all of those surveys that are advertised on the reciepts for every place that I've been in the last few weeks. I mean it doesn't take that much of my time and if it works it does. No harm no foul to do it.
I think I may look into one of those websites where they pay your for essays that you've written...yeah I'm that desperate to make some money. I'm willing to do high school homework for any kind of money. So need help I'm here.
It has kind of made me super neurotic about spending any bit of money right now. Which is making my birthday celebrations kinda of blah and boring because it is hard to think about having fun and spending money when you know that you're running low on it very fast.
have to go do some work.
love ya!
Last week we had to buy a new car. That's one of the worst things in the world to have to do all of a sudden. It was like out of nowhere we had to get a new car. And it wouldn't have been so bad if we didn't have to have two cars. If we had been able to put it off for a few months it would have been better but then again that is not how life goes. Now I'm stuck in a frantic race against a financial clock to find a job. Trying to figure out how to get pennies out of everything that we have. I'm not sure if it's going to work. If anyone has tips I would love to know how to do it.
Its bad when you find yourself googling how to make money online. Which is kind of a pain in the butt to figure out what you can do that isn't going to cost you out the tail end. I really have taken to filling out any and all of those surveys that are advertised on the reciepts for every place that I've been in the last few weeks. I mean it doesn't take that much of my time and if it works it does. No harm no foul to do it.
I think I may look into one of those websites where they pay your for essays that you've written...yeah I'm that desperate to make some money. I'm willing to do high school homework for any kind of money. So need help I'm here.
It has kind of made me super neurotic about spending any bit of money right now. Which is making my birthday celebrations kinda of blah and boring because it is hard to think about having fun and spending money when you know that you're running low on it very fast.
have to go do some work.
love ya!
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