Just overwhelmed...

There are so many things that I have to do right now that I don't even know where to begin. I feel like a dog running around in little circles trying to get my tail. I need to do clothes and clean the kitchen and work on my e-portfolio which I've been making a note to do everyday for the last two weeks in my notebook. I don't even want to think about everything that I'm going to have to do in the next ten weeks and I wish that my computer weren't so sensitive to everything because I keep opening up tabs with my fingers and I hate it.

Currently watching Julie & Julia and everytime I watch that it makes me think what is it that makes someone a popular blogger. What was it about her blog that made it so popular? I just love to watch movies for the food scenes. Yes that makes me so sad that for me what I care about the most is the food scenes and not really the acting. I like movies that are set in Europe that make use of the small towns that feel like they're trapped in time. With the open air markets where you took your basket and bought your food for the day, not for the week or even the month.

This movie in particular makes me think about a time when things were different. When we ate food to make us happy. Women cooked to prove that they were a capable wife and not because they were forced to. A time when butter was used liberally and Weight Watchers was not something that people cared about. We walked around and that made up for the butter that was slathered on thick slices of fresh homemade bread.

Back then there was no shame in being a real woman and having curves and being 'bigger' it wasn't fat it was I guess the word would be healthy. They were healthy looking. It's just like when you start looking at pictures of high school and college students from the 1940s and 1950s they just look so much older. There is something about looking at those pictures that makes me wonder what happened to us.

love ya!

Just...feel broken...

Just feel broken inside and no way to fix it.

Just a little disappointed...

I started student teaching this week and am already a little disappointed. I'm not sure what it is the most disappointing thing.

Is it that I see the teacher tell the students the same thing everyday. To spit out the gum. To tuck in the shirts. To pull up the pants. To put on your ID.

That the same kids are the ones that are causing the problems.

That the curriculum sucks. No one likes it and kids don't learn. It doesn't make sense and if anyone an enlighten me on CSCOPE and what it's all about I would greatly appreciate it.

I'm may end up with pneumonia.

I hate it.