Getting close to Christmas...

It is getting close to Christmas and once again I am no closer to having my house clean and in a state to entertain. Not that there is a lot of room to entertain people in our tiny apartment but there has also been rumors that there is a fence in our near future. But right now I can only hope that it will happen before the end of the year but it will probably not happen. Anyway I have to get back to dishes.

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Distracted state of mind...

I was talking last time about the complicated love story and I ran aground somewhere else because I was busy watching what was on tv. That happens quite about around here. Right now there are so many other things that I need to be doing like laundry and dishes but I would rather be here on the couch covered up with a blanket and watching Top Chef Seattle reruns. I will admit that I was devastated that I had no clue that they were even on in a new season.

There have been so many things running through my head with the holiday season on us already and there being so little coolness in the air. I think that we are in the mid to upper 70s for the last couple of weeks with a few peaks into the 80s. That is terrible but not uncommon for Christmas in Texas. There are many Christmases that I remember running around my grandparents' yard in shorts with my cousins.

I am already distracted and will be back later to write some more. Hopefully I will be a little more focused that my current distracted state. Things are a little up in the air right now.

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The complicated love story...

I really can't believe that it has been close to a month since I was on her. There have been a lot of things going through my mind about what I want to write about. I've been pondering things like what does it mean to write the great American Novel, the rush of the last quarter holidays and clothes. I know some really heavy stuff there.

I've been reading on Doctor Zhivago for quite awhile now and know that some of the major problems I have with that book is the alternating and intertwined stories that at times can be difficult to follow, I think that the only reason I have been able to follow it because of a severe love for that movie. I think about that quite a bit when I am writing because I love the complicated story but also the complicated love story.

The complicated love story is one that always impresses me and seems to make critics and readers think that a novel tends to be on the trashy side because of that. Look at the great European novels, they are complicated and so well written there is no trade off. Hatred of a complicated novel comes from an inability to understand or even to keep up with what is going on. In reality life is complicated and that means that love is going to be complicated. I will have to come back to this because I have gotten a little distracted on Facebook.

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November....

I have been watching all of the thankful status updates on Facebook and it really has gotten me to thinking about things that I'm thankful for this year. This year though hasn't been all about being thankful. There have been a lot of ups and downs and loop-de-loops that have put me on the ground and I've been trying to get off the ground ever since then.

The worst part has been trying not to wallow in the despair and depression that comes from being knocked down over and over again, because you get to a point where it just seems to be easier to stay on the ground. Even when I want to stay there in the mud and muck there has been someone there to push me back out of the mud and tell me to get up and stop acting like a baby.  I will admit that as much as I have needed that there are a few times when I would have rather wallowed a little more in the mud.

For this point in the month it means that I'm thankful for the people who have pushed me out of the mud and not let me fall victim to myself.

thank you!

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Halloween..

I wish that I had something to write about but just not feeling it right now. Would rather be doing something other than dishes and cleaning.

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Wednesday

Things are going a little slow this week and maybe later this week I will finish Clara and be able to write about it this weekend. Right now I am thinking seriously about getting up and doing some dishes and folding some laundry. Tomorrow I will probably need to wash some more laundry instead of letting it pile up until it takes all four machines in the laundry room to wash everything.

I also need to work on putting the food back in the cabinet. I need to get my table back so that I can sit there to work on a few different things. 

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Reading, writing and watching...

Still working on my list of books to read. Working on finishing my book on Tiffany and Clara which is starting to drag but then again every book that I read drags at some point and I stress and strain and usually put it down for a while and then come back to it. I love to read and it makes me feel good. It really is one of the few things keeping me sane right now.

Trying to work on something new with a different style than I normally use. I've been told that I rely too much on dialogue before and right now using so little dialogue makes it feel forced to me. Trying to rewrite something that I had worked on before and I'm not sure if I want to do it or make them kinda sister stories. I just start writing and see where it goes and I'm still not sure of where it is going.

Right now we're watching Ink Master and I like some of what I've seen. I'm ready for the election and the world series to be over so I can watch my shows. I'm gonna finish this up so I can spend a little bit of time looking on Pinterest at tattoos.

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