Stink...

I hate coming up with something to blog about when I don't have a chance to write it down because I sit down at my computer and everything goes completely blank.

Of course I mainly have a chance to think at night before I fall asleep. My biggest goal right at this point is to try and figure out what to get everyone for Christmas. I keep getting my list together but it falls apart before I can finish making it.

I would also like to get my living room clean but that is going slow because I don't have any kind of storage. I really would like a nice piece for storage in my living room but that isn't going to happen any time soon. From what my husband says there isn't a lot of space in the attic and I don't know what I would be able to put up there. Storage is just kinda sparse in the house and I am not going to get a storage unit for anything that I have, it will just have to fit in the house that I have or well I don't need it.

I keep thinking that I'm going to start exercising but I'm just lazy. I hate getting hot and sweaty and I don't like how uncomfortable it feels when my heart rate starts to rise. I always feel terrible after exercising and that just sets everything off on a bad course. I don't understand how people can get up at the crack of dawn and go for a run or go exercise it just makes me feel icky and want to go to sleep.

love ya!

Incoherent...

There are so many things going on right now and I'm just not sure where I should start.

I'm really in the midst of a set of opening and closing doors and out of fear and stuck in almost an antichamber to these doors. I'm surrounded by all of these doors that are opening and closing and I don't know which ones I should be going to or if I should just stay where I am. I know that there are options in life for a reason but as of lately I've become a little gun shy of trying to change what I'm about and it scares me. There are so many things out there that are possibilities that I'm not ready for and it hurts so much.

I know that my thoughts aren't totally coherent right now but that just is how I feel. And the most frustrating thing I keep running into right now is the whole "I can't tell you what to do." That isn't a helpful statement. Please keep that in mind as you move forward with your decsion making.

love ya!

Love...

Love is one of those words that means so much to so many people.

It has really come up lately more in the some times you just do it because it is what is right. That love that you show your family. The getting up at the crack of dawn on your day off to go do something. Or going day after day to the hospital to sit with a loved one just so that they aren't there by themself.

1 John 3:18 "My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth."

The basis of this is on a shirt that my brother gave me that says "Love is the action."

That has been speaking to me a lot this week that that is how we should love those around us not by what we say but what we do for those around us. That really starts to hit home as we start the downhill trek towards Christmas and we see so much that we don't want to.

We will watch on the day after Thanksgiving as people push and shove and fight over cheap laptops and big screen tvs and it makes me sad. I can't even say less than 24 hours after the day where we are supposed to talk about all the things that we are thankful for are people so angry and hostile.

My goal for the remainder of this year is to show love more than I have in the last few months. To start to renew some hope in the human race. To remind people that there are still a few souls out there that are willing to do something not because of what they will get in the end but because they know at heart that they should love all no matter what.

And I promise that I am trying to work on my 30 before 30 list. I may have to pull it up and see what I should start trying to read.

love ya!

Wednesday

So far this week, I've gotten my dogs hooked on Ritz Crackers and mini marshmallows.

Yep Ritz Crackers. To the point where baby girl grabbed the open stick of crackers off the back of the couch and ran off with them.  Of course my dogs aren't the brightest. I watched baby boy run around with a ravioli stuck to his back.

There are a whole mess of things that I need to get done. Like washing the dishes. My kitchen is starting to look like one of those Febreze commercials minus the garbage which I need to put out since they pick up tomorrow. Luckily we are late enough on the route to be able to put it out as we head out the door.

I just have to make it to Saturday to work on my house for two whole days off!

love ya!

Write your heart out...

I'm trying to kick my writing into gear in October so that I can really sit down and whip out something in November which is National Novel Writing Month. I'm so excited that I remembered it in time this year. Usually it is half way through the month before I either read about it or remember. Of course I thought that it was in October so that was what prompted me to look it up.

I'm not sure if anything will come of it but I've been toying with the idea of what I wanted write recently. I hope that by writing in November I will be able to work on a 'novel' and then in December work on some of the stuff that I've been working on for years. In the past I've look at the self publishing options on Amazon I think and that makes me feel more comfortable about trying to get a book out there.

I really need to workk on my giant fruit for the bulletin board so that I can get it up on Wednesday since I'd meant to do that for the last three weeks and all I've accomplished is cutting out a stack of purple circles to make a bunch of grapes. Then I got the rest of the construction paper but I left it on the shelf and then that was the end of the fruit for last week.

I need to look at bills or go to the bank to put some money in there but then I'd have to pay the bills and that freaks me out right this second.

We took baby girl to get the last of her shots and then a rabies shot so that she's all good to go. Of course the lethargy that they may cause lasted a whole total of twenty minutes. I had to almost drag her out of the pet store because she wants to be friends with every other puppy that she meets. Then once she was in the car it was almost smooth sailing. We are still working on her getting any kind of traction on smooth laminate flooring. It is truly fun to watch her freak out because she can't go anywhere. She also was in rocket dog mode because she finally figured out how to get on the couch and now she goes back and forth from being on the couch to off the couch and back and forth no problem. She nailed me in the jaw on one of them, it didn't even register what she had done.

love ya!

Oopsy...

Oh poo! I had really big plans for this last month but they went to pot along with a few dreams, but I'm over that.

Things don't always go the way that you want and I've been bouncing a few ideas around about what to do but it always comes back to two things...reading and writing. I know that in the last week I've read right at four books and no they weren't picture books. I do know that it takes about two hours of straight reading to read a Nancy Drew novel.

Those are some of my favorite books to read and I started reading those in the second grade. For twenty plus years those have been beloved friends. I was a little disappointed when I started reading about the series and to know that some of them have been ghost written. I also noticed in one that I started last night that Nancy is now a strawberry blonde.

This week has been a truly long week and I hope that this one coming up isn't since I will be rewarded with a Saturday off and as of now have no plans for how I'm gonna spend it. I should spend it finishing up some boxes and going through my clothes since sweater weather is approaching and I don't know where any of mine are.

love ya!

The worst time of the day...

I have determined over the last few days that 3 o'clock has to be the most insufferable time of the day.

That of course is just my opinion but if you really think about it in the grand scheme of working a 9-5 job it is terrible. First it is smack dab in the middle of the afternoon which means that is about the time your lunch has started to fade and it is really a little too late to have much of a snack. This food timing is only made worse by going to lunch at eleven because you drew the short straw.

If you're like me some times you indulge a little too much at lunch and are a little miserable when you come back. So around three is usually the time that I've either finally found my motivation or I've finally gotten everything cleaned up from lunch. Some times where I work things blow up between 11 and 1 or 2 depending on how many people are working, but if there is someone at lunch it will go crazy. So if you've finally found that motivation, depending on the size of the project you really can't start it.

Personally I hate to get in the middle of a project before I have to leave work. I want to be able to sit down and finish what I'm working on and not have it hanging over my head. I don't like leaving some of the little details on the table, I want it to be finished just in case something were to happen to me. I hate to think in such a negative light but I want to be honest with the fact that I know that tomorrow is no guarantee.

It is almost as bad as 10am. That goes about the same way except that at 11 my boss goes to lunch and then it goes downhill from there. He goes to lunch, then I go when he comes back and then when I get back there are a bunch of things that probably need to get wrapped up and then it's three and there is really no coming back from there. Then there is this horrible drag from about 4:15 to 4:40. Then all of a sudden you find your groove and then all of a sudden you look up, there are no lights on and it's after five.

So tomorrow at 3 if you just aren't feeling it, know that you aren't alone.

love ya!