I guess this will be my last post of 2010 and I'm not going to lie and say that I hate to see this year end but I'm not going to say I really want it to end. I'm more in the middle of the road for what is going on. There are so many things that I wanted to get done and of course I didn't. There is just so much that I've learned and felt.
I would put up pictures of the wedding but I don't want to. I don't want to share them with the world like that. I did spend the other night looking through them so that I could just see them all. I had been looking at my cousin's pics and they looked so serious in all of the pictures and I just couldn't understand. I didn't know if that's what I looked like in all mine but I hoped I didn't. I was happy to see that there were lots of smiles and laughing. I have no problem with that and it means that all of the pictures looked good.
Tonight I will be ringing in the New Year with my Sugar Bear probably snuggled up in bed asleep or reading.
love ya!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Don't know where to start....
I just don't know where to start with this today, I just know that I need to write and I need to purge. I need to get it all out of my head and just runaway from it all but it doesn't seem to happen. I don't know why I can't do it anymore. I just can't let it go like I use to. I don't know why. If it is the fact that I just don't have the time that I use to which was not really time but more so that I was suffering from moderate to severe insomnia.
I just don't want to end up with all these different things to say and no time to say it. The one thing that I've learned is that you have to get it out every now and then or when you do finally have some kind of emotional break you go totally and completely crazy and start in on anything everything. It isn't all up for grabs but if you just let it build up you end up like Mount Vesuvius and take out everything that you come in contact with.
I've got so many things that I have to do that I'm lucky that I can move or know what to do. I'm caught once again in that place where I'm not sure whether I should do what I need to do or do what I want to do. It doesn't really matter because right now I'm not really in to doing anything but being lazy.
I'm kinda missing the sunshine of fall and spring, don't really like the sunshine of summer. I am however certain that there should and hopefully will be some rain this week except for my day off. On my day off it is destined to be nice and sunny but still cool.
love ya!
I just don't want to end up with all these different things to say and no time to say it. The one thing that I've learned is that you have to get it out every now and then or when you do finally have some kind of emotional break you go totally and completely crazy and start in on anything everything. It isn't all up for grabs but if you just let it build up you end up like Mount Vesuvius and take out everything that you come in contact with.
I've got so many things that I have to do that I'm lucky that I can move or know what to do. I'm caught once again in that place where I'm not sure whether I should do what I need to do or do what I want to do. It doesn't really matter because right now I'm not really in to doing anything but being lazy.
I'm kinda missing the sunshine of fall and spring, don't really like the sunshine of summer. I am however certain that there should and hopefully will be some rain this week except for my day off. On my day off it is destined to be nice and sunny but still cool.
love ya!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Not sure if I'm really ready for Christmas...
I can't believe that there really are only a few days until Christmas and I'm not ready. No way in the world am I ready. I still haven't decorated the Christmas tree or wrapped any presents. I will have to get onto that soon but I'm so tired, so very tired that right now at eight at night that I can't even imagine staying up to the end of the movie.
love ya!
love ya!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Still getting there...
I am now contemplating whether or not I can handle writing in two different blogs on a fairly regular basis. I think that has always been my weakness in blogging, really sticking with it. That's why I had to shut down another blog that I had here on blogger that started out for a class. No one was reading it except for the teacher and that doesn't do a lot of good for a blog and then I knew that I couldn't pull it out of what it had been intended for and that was to talk about Children's literature. I did what I had to do to get the grade for it and it wasn't too hard. I was amazed at how many people were having a hard time keeping up with it. Three blogs a week on something we talked about in class or the books that we were reading with a certain number of book reviews over the semester. It was a cakewalk.
I will leave you with a picture...I hope. My sugar bear was fidgeting while I was trying to take pictures...there are sometimes that a plain ole camera does a lot more good than a digital one.
Merry Christmas!
Love ya!
Monday, December 20, 2010
Trying to get on here more...
I really am trying to start working on this more than once every three or four weeks. So I guess this would be more like working towards having a New Year's resolution and all that jazz but I'm going to try and work up to it so that maybe by that time I will be posting atleast once a day instead of once a month. Now I don't plan for this to happen starting January 1st but maybe in a few more months.
To me it really is a matter of making the time to do this on a daily basis. I mean I get on the internet and play on facebook a lot but I just can't always seem to get over here to pound out a few sentences or throw a picture or two up, which will probably happen pretty soon.
It is the holiday season and I'm sure that I will be putting up a few things about the holidays and what that does to our family. I just keep telling myself that it's one time a year that I have to really suck it up and deal with it but that isn't something that I like doing. I gross and sweaty and wish that I could have spent more of my day off snuggled up with my Sugar Bear in bed. I did get to sleep just a tiny bit late but for me that's starting to be 8 or 8:30 which stinks because there used to be a time when I could sleep until well into the afternoon with no problems.
Of course I was also suffering from acute insomnia coupled with an Internet addiction to blogging. I have been having a few recurring bouts of insomnia but I now no longer keep my laptop in my bedroom so there is not a lot of choice. I just roll over and snuggle up into my Sugar Bear's back and hold on, knowing that he is there to take care of me.
I will probably be back one day this week just depending on how much I'm at the fireworks stand this season. And how much I have to work to make the ends meet. I'm trying to get a little more adept at trying to keep the ends tied together.
love ya!
To me it really is a matter of making the time to do this on a daily basis. I mean I get on the internet and play on facebook a lot but I just can't always seem to get over here to pound out a few sentences or throw a picture or two up, which will probably happen pretty soon.
It is the holiday season and I'm sure that I will be putting up a few things about the holidays and what that does to our family. I just keep telling myself that it's one time a year that I have to really suck it up and deal with it but that isn't something that I like doing. I gross and sweaty and wish that I could have spent more of my day off snuggled up with my Sugar Bear in bed. I did get to sleep just a tiny bit late but for me that's starting to be 8 or 8:30 which stinks because there used to be a time when I could sleep until well into the afternoon with no problems.
Of course I was also suffering from acute insomnia coupled with an Internet addiction to blogging. I have been having a few recurring bouts of insomnia but I now no longer keep my laptop in my bedroom so there is not a lot of choice. I just roll over and snuggle up into my Sugar Bear's back and hold on, knowing that he is there to take care of me.
I will probably be back one day this week just depending on how much I'm at the fireworks stand this season. And how much I have to work to make the ends meet. I'm trying to get a little more adept at trying to keep the ends tied together.
love ya!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Just getting ready for Christmas...
I tried to spend most of my one day off a week getting my house clean I now have a doll cabinet and a basket full of porcelian dolls. I did get most of my kitchen clean this afternoon and I actually found part of the cabinet and should have taken before and after pictures but I forgot. I paid bills last night which was a lesson in putting it off since the electric bill was due today, so I sucked it up and paid the extra dollar to pay it at the gas station but it got there today using the check that I had already written.
I really wish that I could go ahead and put up my Christmas tree but that will have to wait until either tomorrow night or Friday night because I think that Saturday I will be finishing laundry from the last three weeks that I have been putting off because of sheer exhuastion. That and the lack of adequate drying facilities but they are now all fixed and running like a charm, which means that now the washers are going to go to pieces now.
I am so excited that Charlie Brown Christmas is on tomorrow night. That's the only Christmas special that I have to make time to see. I would spend some more time on here but I have to see who actually wins Hell's Kitchen and then I'm off to find a place to put this doll cabinet because right now it is sitting in the middle of my living room making me very nervous as it is in front of our patio door.
Maybe for Christmas I will get a fence around my patio area or maybe I won't.
love ya!
I really wish that I could go ahead and put up my Christmas tree but that will have to wait until either tomorrow night or Friday night because I think that Saturday I will be finishing laundry from the last three weeks that I have been putting off because of sheer exhuastion. That and the lack of adequate drying facilities but they are now all fixed and running like a charm, which means that now the washers are going to go to pieces now.
I am so excited that Charlie Brown Christmas is on tomorrow night. That's the only Christmas special that I have to make time to see. I would spend some more time on here but I have to see who actually wins Hell's Kitchen and then I'm off to find a place to put this doll cabinet because right now it is sitting in the middle of my living room making me very nervous as it is in front of our patio door.
Maybe for Christmas I will get a fence around my patio area or maybe I won't.
love ya!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Just couldn't get to where I was going...
I got to the end of last post and didn't get anywhere near where I wanted to.
What I was thinking about was old photos or really black and white photos. I don't know why it is but I find black and white photos and color photos up through the sixties and the seventies so much more appealing than new digital photos. Black and white just seem so much more striking. The whites are so bright and they have so much more character. The shadows are what create the depth and personality of the pictures that I can't help but stare at them.
The hand tinted photos that are subtly colored to pull a rosy hue into the cheeks of a woman in love or to show off a lovely green suit in the latest cut and style. There is something about these photos that make me wonder about beauty. Even just watching old movies, the big Hollywood hits of the day and it makes me wonder about the standards of beauty that we have today and what is so different about thin Hollywood starlets and those of old Hollywood. I say this because I just watched Meet me in Saint Louis and I was looking at how thin Judy Garland was in that film. She looks considerly thinner than any starlet on today's silver screen. Maybe it was just the way that her clothes were cut or how truly thin she was but it was almost disgusting to look at her.
The colors in that film are beautiful. I love the colors of the clothing and the backgrounds. I love color. I love deep hues. I love contrasting colors that make the movie pop. I know that now I really just seem to be rambling but that's what I love about old movies and the transition from black and white to color and I think that is really what it does that the way I feel is what makes me ramble and wander about the topic and never really say anything...kinda like being in love.
love ya!
What I was thinking about was old photos or really black and white photos. I don't know why it is but I find black and white photos and color photos up through the sixties and the seventies so much more appealing than new digital photos. Black and white just seem so much more striking. The whites are so bright and they have so much more character. The shadows are what create the depth and personality of the pictures that I can't help but stare at them.
The hand tinted photos that are subtly colored to pull a rosy hue into the cheeks of a woman in love or to show off a lovely green suit in the latest cut and style. There is something about these photos that make me wonder about beauty. Even just watching old movies, the big Hollywood hits of the day and it makes me wonder about the standards of beauty that we have today and what is so different about thin Hollywood starlets and those of old Hollywood. I say this because I just watched Meet me in Saint Louis and I was looking at how thin Judy Garland was in that film. She looks considerly thinner than any starlet on today's silver screen. Maybe it was just the way that her clothes were cut or how truly thin she was but it was almost disgusting to look at her.
The colors in that film are beautiful. I love the colors of the clothing and the backgrounds. I love color. I love deep hues. I love contrasting colors that make the movie pop. I know that now I really just seem to be rambling but that's what I love about old movies and the transition from black and white to color and I think that is really what it does that the way I feel is what makes me ramble and wander about the topic and never really say anything...kinda like being in love.
love ya!
Just looking at the pictures...
I love pictures.
I see life through the view finder of a camera.
I like to look at the world as though I were taking pictures.
As a child, I remember sitting on the couch at my grandparents looking at the pictures in National Geographic. Those striking images are the ones that filled my childhood and showed me what the world was like. It may have been the view of the photographer but those were the ones that pushed me to see life differently. Even now as I'm sitting on the couch, I'm thinking about how I would take the picture to describe what I'm doing, what I would want the caption in the magazine to read.
But more than anything as the years have progressed I wished that there was a way for me to have a camera in a set of glasses so that I could take the picture of what I see and it be in the same frame. I know that is how a regular camera works but I want the pictures to have my hands in them. I want the hands in the picture because to me that is truly seeing the picture through the eyes of the photographer. Literally seeing exactly what the photographer sees without being instrusive.
There are angles that can't always be achieved with having to put your camera to your eye to take it. Then again taking the best picture might not always be one that is achieved in an easy position. Even in movies I think that they lack personality when it shows it from a third person perspective. I like first person perspective.
I haven't really had time to spend on here and it pains me. I wish that I could squeeze a few more hours into the day because I really miss hearing the sound of the keys tapping away. I hate not having the words to say everything that is pounding in my head and pulling me away from what I'm trying to do. I haven't had a day off since Thanksgiving and before that it was Labor Day. I'm burnt out and my day off hasn't been my day off in a long time. Then I have to worry that if I put up four or five posts that it would ruin the way that it flows. Then again I don't want to put up one insanely long post where you have to wonder if there is a pit stop because you can't see the end of the post and you really have to potty.
love ya!
I see life through the view finder of a camera.
I like to look at the world as though I were taking pictures.
As a child, I remember sitting on the couch at my grandparents looking at the pictures in National Geographic. Those striking images are the ones that filled my childhood and showed me what the world was like. It may have been the view of the photographer but those were the ones that pushed me to see life differently. Even now as I'm sitting on the couch, I'm thinking about how I would take the picture to describe what I'm doing, what I would want the caption in the magazine to read.
But more than anything as the years have progressed I wished that there was a way for me to have a camera in a set of glasses so that I could take the picture of what I see and it be in the same frame. I know that is how a regular camera works but I want the pictures to have my hands in them. I want the hands in the picture because to me that is truly seeing the picture through the eyes of the photographer. Literally seeing exactly what the photographer sees without being instrusive.
There are angles that can't always be achieved with having to put your camera to your eye to take it. Then again taking the best picture might not always be one that is achieved in an easy position. Even in movies I think that they lack personality when it shows it from a third person perspective. I like first person perspective.
I haven't really had time to spend on here and it pains me. I wish that I could squeeze a few more hours into the day because I really miss hearing the sound of the keys tapping away. I hate not having the words to say everything that is pounding in my head and pulling me away from what I'm trying to do. I haven't had a day off since Thanksgiving and before that it was Labor Day. I'm burnt out and my day off hasn't been my day off in a long time. Then I have to worry that if I put up four or five posts that it would ruin the way that it flows. Then again I don't want to put up one insanely long post where you have to wonder if there is a pit stop because you can't see the end of the post and you really have to potty.
love ya!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
just so close...
Just so stinking close that I can't stand it. I really can't wait. Four days. Four days. I just keep telling myself that. That makes it a little bit easier to get through the day but it really isn't that much. it doesn't do enough for me to make it through the day. I still wake up every morning with an upset stomach and nausea. I can't wait for it to be over. It just is so close that I can smell it. Please let it be over soon.
love ya!
love ya!
Monday, November 22, 2010
Just...
Just a bit overwhelmed by having a week off. For some reason it seems so daunting to have an entire week of nothing to do. Which is a lie like no other that I have nothing to do. I have to clean and do lesson plans and then it's Thanksgiving so there are those plans that I have to take care of. I really wish that this week were longer and that I wouldn't have to give it up so soon. I was hoping to have all of today off but I have to go in and sub in an English class. I really shouldn't be on here right now but I just have so many thoughts that are running around in my head that I need to do something about them. They are filling up my head until they are starting to run out of my mouth and we all know that can be very dangerous.
I will spend some quality time working on here in about two weeks. There will be lots of overdue posts that I have to right. I think that I may actually right them down by hand and then type them in, which seems daunting too. That always seems so much more work than I think that it will be but it helps get everything out of my head.
Just glad to be able to spend time with friends and family. I also need to go to the grocery store, we're starting to look a little Old Mother Hubbard but this is the worst week to have to go to the store. I just want to spend some time with my husband more than anything right now.
love ya!
I will spend some quality time working on here in about two weeks. There will be lots of overdue posts that I have to right. I think that I may actually right them down by hand and then type them in, which seems daunting too. That always seems so much more work than I think that it will be but it helps get everything out of my head.
Just glad to be able to spend time with friends and family. I also need to go to the grocery store, we're starting to look a little Old Mother Hubbard but this is the worst week to have to go to the store. I just want to spend some time with my husband more than anything right now.
love ya!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Just ready...
So ready for Thanksgiving and a week off.
I really need it. Went to the doctor today having some back pain and found out that is part of why I haven't been sleeping well. So I took the extra time away from school with some meds to try and sleep but it only takes a few hours before it starts to wear off and we have no aspirin for me to take. We have advil and that with the meds will likely give me an ulcer and I'm already feeling bad so that is the last thing that I want.
Gonna finish writing up the test that I'm giving on Thursday so that on Friday we can just relax and with a playoff game Friday night that will make it easier to control the class. Of course the ones that are the problems will of course be there and the ones who sleep are the ones who already don't cause problems.
love ya!
I really need it. Went to the doctor today having some back pain and found out that is part of why I haven't been sleeping well. So I took the extra time away from school with some meds to try and sleep but it only takes a few hours before it starts to wear off and we have no aspirin for me to take. We have advil and that with the meds will likely give me an ulcer and I'm already feeling bad so that is the last thing that I want.
Gonna finish writing up the test that I'm giving on Thursday so that on Friday we can just relax and with a playoff game Friday night that will make it easier to control the class. Of course the ones that are the problems will of course be there and the ones who sleep are the ones who already don't cause problems.
love ya!
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Just so disappointed....
I have no idea what is going on with the kids that I am student teaching. I really don't understand what is going on with kids today. I don't understand why it is so hard to bring paper and a pen or pencil to class. I don't understand why there are so many kids that only use pencils. They never use pens and they hate when you offer them a pen to use.
I also have a strong desire to go to all my high school teachers and apologize profusely for the way that I acted in their classes. I know that it won't make up for back then but it will make me feel better for the way that I acted. I hate it. I really hate the way I feel right now. I'm becoming bitter because of what these kids do and don't do. I spend all my time waking kids up and telling them to be quiet. I wish that there was naptime to take care of all this. They don't give a flying fart in space about the dress code. Then we have the kids who flaunt the dress code with this stupid crap about being part of that church of body modification or some junk like that so that they don't have to cut their hair.
The real world will be kicking a lot of tail in a few years when they get out into the real world. It's going to be a rude awakening for my advanced class come next year. They have no idea what college is going to be like. They all live in this world where they think that everything should be handed to them. I really don't understand it and I don't think that I will. I will be looking for a job that is not at the high school level I'm pretty sure. I really hate that because I love the material that I get to teach and know that I will be taking a serious blow to have to teach at a lower level to what I have learned but if that is what keeps me sane then that is what I am going to have to do.
I hate the fact that there is a job opening come spring where I'm student teaching right now because I don't want to stay here. I want to work with kids who care. Ones that really want to learn. These kids think that if they just show up to class and do whatever it is that they want to that they will get to pass the class. They don't understand at all how a test works. It means that you study what you've been taught for the last few weeks and then you show me what you have LEARNED not showing me what you have memorized.
I will have to come back to this later on a different day.
love ya!
I also have a strong desire to go to all my high school teachers and apologize profusely for the way that I acted in their classes. I know that it won't make up for back then but it will make me feel better for the way that I acted. I hate it. I really hate the way I feel right now. I'm becoming bitter because of what these kids do and don't do. I spend all my time waking kids up and telling them to be quiet. I wish that there was naptime to take care of all this. They don't give a flying fart in space about the dress code. Then we have the kids who flaunt the dress code with this stupid crap about being part of that church of body modification or some junk like that so that they don't have to cut their hair.
The real world will be kicking a lot of tail in a few years when they get out into the real world. It's going to be a rude awakening for my advanced class come next year. They have no idea what college is going to be like. They all live in this world where they think that everything should be handed to them. I really don't understand it and I don't think that I will. I will be looking for a job that is not at the high school level I'm pretty sure. I really hate that because I love the material that I get to teach and know that I will be taking a serious blow to have to teach at a lower level to what I have learned but if that is what keeps me sane then that is what I am going to have to do.
I hate the fact that there is a job opening come spring where I'm student teaching right now because I don't want to stay here. I want to work with kids who care. Ones that really want to learn. These kids think that if they just show up to class and do whatever it is that they want to that they will get to pass the class. They don't understand at all how a test works. It means that you study what you've been taught for the last few weeks and then you show me what you have LEARNED not showing me what you have memorized.
I will have to come back to this later on a different day.
love ya!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Just so much to do...
There is so much going on right now and I don't know where to start and what I want to do is not what is priority for me right now. All of a sudden I have the urge and desire to clean the house knowing that I need to finish lesson plans for the next three weeks. Then I have a week at Thanksgiving to plan the last week of student teaching.
Then I still have to figure out what it is that I am going to do after that. Not sure what I'm going to do as far as a job after that happens. Not sure if I will be able to find a job at Christmas or if I will just end up subbing for the spring but then I would still have to have a job to get through the summer.
Off to make some powerpoints on the Renaissance.
Love ya!
Then I still have to figure out what it is that I am going to do after that. Not sure what I'm going to do as far as a job after that happens. Not sure if I will be able to find a job at Christmas or if I will just end up subbing for the spring but then I would still have to have a job to get through the summer.
Off to make some powerpoints on the Renaissance.
Love ya!
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Just a liar
I know I keep saying that I'm going to get on here more often but I have yet to do it. I'm still trying to work out how I keep everything balanced and I don't like that. I have a problem with sitting still for too long. It makes it really hard to stay in the same room for eight hours a day.
I did just get finished mixing up some brownies. I can't way to see how they come out I made some with a peanut butter filling and the rest have peppermint patties in the middle. Right now I am watching Rocky Horror Picture show because first it was on Glee and now it's on a different channel. And somehow I've convinced my husband to watch a musical and I don't think he realizes it yet. It takes everything just to get to watch Glee, which I missed a part of it. I have no idea what happened in the end. It really makes me want to watch Moulin Rouge. Then again that's a musical too and we haven't gotten the VCR hooked up yet.
Watching this really makes me see how prudish we are in this day and age. This movie was subject to being banned in countries and if it wasn't banned forced into the midnight time slot. I haven't really made up my mind one way or another about this movie. Just really want to be able to check it off as one of those movies that I've seen.
Love the shoes that I've seen so far.
Why do women giggle when men speak French to them?
Love ya!
I did just get finished mixing up some brownies. I can't way to see how they come out I made some with a peanut butter filling and the rest have peppermint patties in the middle. Right now I am watching Rocky Horror Picture show because first it was on Glee and now it's on a different channel. And somehow I've convinced my husband to watch a musical and I don't think he realizes it yet. It takes everything just to get to watch Glee, which I missed a part of it. I have no idea what happened in the end. It really makes me want to watch Moulin Rouge. Then again that's a musical too and we haven't gotten the VCR hooked up yet.
Watching this really makes me see how prudish we are in this day and age. This movie was subject to being banned in countries and if it wasn't banned forced into the midnight time slot. I haven't really made up my mind one way or another about this movie. Just really want to be able to check it off as one of those movies that I've seen.
Love the shoes that I've seen so far.
Why do women giggle when men speak French to them?
Love ya!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Just a few words...
that were mispronounced today during presentations.
Constantinople, schism, monetary, indictment, interference, Stephen, zealots, fortifications, perished, oblivion, Nicholas, Marseilles, sepulchre, Louis (as in Louis, King of France), contagion, Constantine, Venetians, Bosphorus, tactical, diplomacy, Tunis, liberties, medieval, sect, Benedict, martyrs, edict, Byzantine
There were a few more that I will give them because they are hard to say in general. --Saladin, Damietta and Acre (the city in the middle east)
It was a long day and there's still one more to go of presentations.
People make sure that your children can read. That is so important. Some of these are words that sophomores in high school should not be mispronouncing especially if they are in Pre-Advanced Placement classes. They also need a little help with grammar and spellcheck. Please make sure that they understand that there are words that need to be capitalized that spell check will not catch. There are also several spelling errors that are the same way, the computer will not recognize that you misspelled a word if it actually spells another word, it only makes it awkward to read the sentence. So even after spell check you need to sit down and read your paper or have someone else read it for you or in rare cases you may do both. I only say have someone else read it because you may not catch your mistakes because you know what you want it to say and you will unnaturally skip over these mistakes never knowing any different.
I promise that I'm going to get around to doing some more blogging when life finally stops trying to kick me all over the map. There are quite a few different things that I would like to address and I just haven't had the time to get to them. Especially since House is coming on...I have to decide. I also have a quilt that I'm working on. It seems to be going very well right now. Of course I really haven't gotten bored with it like I have any other time.
love ya!
Constantinople, schism, monetary, indictment, interference, Stephen, zealots, fortifications, perished, oblivion, Nicholas, Marseilles, sepulchre, Louis (as in Louis, King of France), contagion, Constantine, Venetians, Bosphorus, tactical, diplomacy, Tunis, liberties, medieval, sect, Benedict, martyrs, edict, Byzantine
There were a few more that I will give them because they are hard to say in general. --Saladin, Damietta and Acre (the city in the middle east)
It was a long day and there's still one more to go of presentations.
People make sure that your children can read. That is so important. Some of these are words that sophomores in high school should not be mispronouncing especially if they are in Pre-Advanced Placement classes. They also need a little help with grammar and spellcheck. Please make sure that they understand that there are words that need to be capitalized that spell check will not catch. There are also several spelling errors that are the same way, the computer will not recognize that you misspelled a word if it actually spells another word, it only makes it awkward to read the sentence. So even after spell check you need to sit down and read your paper or have someone else read it for you or in rare cases you may do both. I only say have someone else read it because you may not catch your mistakes because you know what you want it to say and you will unnaturally skip over these mistakes never knowing any different.
I promise that I'm going to get around to doing some more blogging when life finally stops trying to kick me all over the map. There are quite a few different things that I would like to address and I just haven't had the time to get to them. Especially since House is coming on...I have to decide. I also have a quilt that I'm working on. It seems to be going very well right now. Of course I really haven't gotten bored with it like I have any other time.
love ya!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Just a bit better...
Today was a little bit better than yesterday but I can tell you that is was not much better. There was atleast smiling and laughing until they realized that they were laughing and then you could tell that they were all feeling guilty. It makes me sad to think that this is how the next few weeks are going to be. But then again it may actually be longer than a few weeks.
There aren't words to say what is on my mind and in my heart. My heart hurts because it just doesn't make sense. I know that it never makes sense but this time it just hits really close to home. Usually you don't have to deal with this personally but this time it was. When you know the family it makes all the difference in the world how you handle the emotions.
And Josie was right it does bring up all the old memories. They're the ones that you don't want to think about but all of a sudden they come flooding back and you can't do anything but be forced to deal with the new emotions and the old ones on top of that. I hate it.
I miss Thomas.
love ya!
There aren't words to say what is on my mind and in my heart. My heart hurts because it just doesn't make sense. I know that it never makes sense but this time it just hits really close to home. Usually you don't have to deal with this personally but this time it was. When you know the family it makes all the difference in the world how you handle the emotions.
And Josie was right it does bring up all the old memories. They're the ones that you don't want to think about but all of a sudden they come flooding back and you can't do anything but be forced to deal with the new emotions and the old ones on top of that. I hate it.
I miss Thomas.
love ya!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Just been a mess...
Lately things have been going crazy and they don't seem to be letting up anytime soon so I have to say sorry now.
I will those enlighten you with a few things that I've heard in the high school classroom.
What is a gladiator?
Hannibal attacked Rome by air.
Hannibal attacked Rome with sheep.
Obama is the pope.
Obama is a dictator.
There were more but those are the only ones that I can remember right now and yes some of them were highly inappropriate. And yes these are answers that are coming from sophomores in high school some of them from Pre-AP class.
Four weeks down eight more to go. One observation down two more left. Counting down the days until this over. One of our more troublesome students has been suspended for three days and then thirty days in alternative education...minimum. That should get us to almost Thanksgiving and then I only have about two weeks after that or maybe just six or seven days depending on how she is over there. But knowing our district she will get out early for good behaviour or something like that.
Yes Friday was one of those crazy days that makes you wonder why you got up. There was a gang fight, a girl fight and then a gas leak. It was just one of those crazy days since we were giving a test in part of the classes...it happened in one where we were giving a test. So that made it crazy this week and next since the end of the grading period is the 15th. So we have two weeks to fit in a three week unit. Fun has begun.
love ya!
I will those enlighten you with a few things that I've heard in the high school classroom.
What is a gladiator?
Hannibal attacked Rome by air.
Hannibal attacked Rome with sheep.
Obama is the pope.
Obama is a dictator.
There were more but those are the only ones that I can remember right now and yes some of them were highly inappropriate. And yes these are answers that are coming from sophomores in high school some of them from Pre-AP class.
Four weeks down eight more to go. One observation down two more left. Counting down the days until this over. One of our more troublesome students has been suspended for three days and then thirty days in alternative education...minimum. That should get us to almost Thanksgiving and then I only have about two weeks after that or maybe just six or seven days depending on how she is over there. But knowing our district she will get out early for good behaviour or something like that.
Yes Friday was one of those crazy days that makes you wonder why you got up. There was a gang fight, a girl fight and then a gas leak. It was just one of those crazy days since we were giving a test in part of the classes...it happened in one where we were giving a test. So that made it crazy this week and next since the end of the grading period is the 15th. So we have two weeks to fit in a three week unit. Fun has begun.
love ya!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Just overwhelmed...
There are so many things that I have to do right now that I don't even know where to begin. I feel like a dog running around in little circles trying to get my tail. I need to do clothes and clean the kitchen and work on my e-portfolio which I've been making a note to do everyday for the last two weeks in my notebook. I don't even want to think about everything that I'm going to have to do in the next ten weeks and I wish that my computer weren't so sensitive to everything because I keep opening up tabs with my fingers and I hate it.
Currently watching Julie & Julia and everytime I watch that it makes me think what is it that makes someone a popular blogger. What was it about her blog that made it so popular? I just love to watch movies for the food scenes. Yes that makes me so sad that for me what I care about the most is the food scenes and not really the acting. I like movies that are set in Europe that make use of the small towns that feel like they're trapped in time. With the open air markets where you took your basket and bought your food for the day, not for the week or even the month.
This movie in particular makes me think about a time when things were different. When we ate food to make us happy. Women cooked to prove that they were a capable wife and not because they were forced to. A time when butter was used liberally and Weight Watchers was not something that people cared about. We walked around and that made up for the butter that was slathered on thick slices of fresh homemade bread.
Back then there was no shame in being a real woman and having curves and being 'bigger' it wasn't fat it was I guess the word would be healthy. They were healthy looking. It's just like when you start looking at pictures of high school and college students from the 1940s and 1950s they just look so much older. There is something about looking at those pictures that makes me wonder what happened to us.
love ya!
Currently watching Julie & Julia and everytime I watch that it makes me think what is it that makes someone a popular blogger. What was it about her blog that made it so popular? I just love to watch movies for the food scenes. Yes that makes me so sad that for me what I care about the most is the food scenes and not really the acting. I like movies that are set in Europe that make use of the small towns that feel like they're trapped in time. With the open air markets where you took your basket and bought your food for the day, not for the week or even the month.
This movie in particular makes me think about a time when things were different. When we ate food to make us happy. Women cooked to prove that they were a capable wife and not because they were forced to. A time when butter was used liberally and Weight Watchers was not something that people cared about. We walked around and that made up for the butter that was slathered on thick slices of fresh homemade bread.
Back then there was no shame in being a real woman and having curves and being 'bigger' it wasn't fat it was I guess the word would be healthy. They were healthy looking. It's just like when you start looking at pictures of high school and college students from the 1940s and 1950s they just look so much older. There is something about looking at those pictures that makes me wonder what happened to us.
love ya!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Just a little disappointed...
I started student teaching this week and am already a little disappointed. I'm not sure what it is the most disappointing thing.
Is it that I see the teacher tell the students the same thing everyday. To spit out the gum. To tuck in the shirts. To pull up the pants. To put on your ID.
That the same kids are the ones that are causing the problems.
That the curriculum sucks. No one likes it and kids don't learn. It doesn't make sense and if anyone an enlighten me on CSCOPE and what it's all about I would greatly appreciate it.
I'm may end up with pneumonia.
I hate it.
Is it that I see the teacher tell the students the same thing everyday. To spit out the gum. To tuck in the shirts. To pull up the pants. To put on your ID.
That the same kids are the ones that are causing the problems.
That the curriculum sucks. No one likes it and kids don't learn. It doesn't make sense and if anyone an enlighten me on CSCOPE and what it's all about I would greatly appreciate it.
I'm may end up with pneumonia.
I hate it.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Christmas....
I started on a bit of a tangent at the end of my last post because of the impending Christmas season. It makes me nauseous to think that Christmas is 17/18 weeks away. That in no time flat we will be faced with ugly little Santas peaking around the corners of aisles.
I can't stand to see Santas. I can't even stand the thought of forcing a child to sit on a mall Santa's lap. It just gives me the creeps and takes away from the holiday season. At Christmas I was always more concerned with getting to ride in the train than to see Santa, now there is no train they just have an ice skating rink...or they did. I'm not sure if they still have it since there is now an ice skating rink in town. But I loved the train. It was a just a giant train made out of that hard plastic. I have no idea how much it cost but I loved it. I have no idea why that was always my favorite part of Christmas.
I loved watching Grandma getting out the stockings for everyone and hanging them up on the bookshelf in the office. Knowing that I was going to get a kitty cat stocking hanger and that my cousin would get a puppy dog for our matching Raggedy Ann and Andy stockings.
But I really just hate the way that Christmas is so commercialized now. I can't even stand getting out my own Christmas decorations and putting them up for people to see because there just isn't any desire in my heart or mind to do so. I love to go to Hobby Lobby and look at the Christmas ornaments that are separated out by color. I used to love going to the department stores and look at all the Christmas trees that were just covered in ornaments and no matter what they always looked beautiful. Now there's two trees covered in ornaments shoved over in a corner with some gaudy Santas and nutcrackers.
love ya!
I can't stand to see Santas. I can't even stand the thought of forcing a child to sit on a mall Santa's lap. It just gives me the creeps and takes away from the holiday season. At Christmas I was always more concerned with getting to ride in the train than to see Santa, now there is no train they just have an ice skating rink...or they did. I'm not sure if they still have it since there is now an ice skating rink in town. But I loved the train. It was a just a giant train made out of that hard plastic. I have no idea how much it cost but I loved it. I have no idea why that was always my favorite part of Christmas.
I loved watching Grandma getting out the stockings for everyone and hanging them up on the bookshelf in the office. Knowing that I was going to get a kitty cat stocking hanger and that my cousin would get a puppy dog for our matching Raggedy Ann and Andy stockings.
But I really just hate the way that Christmas is so commercialized now. I can't even stand getting out my own Christmas decorations and putting them up for people to see because there just isn't any desire in my heart or mind to do so. I love to go to Hobby Lobby and look at the Christmas ornaments that are separated out by color. I used to love going to the department stores and look at all the Christmas trees that were just covered in ornaments and no matter what they always looked beautiful. Now there's two trees covered in ornaments shoved over in a corner with some gaudy Santas and nutcrackers.
love ya!
Things change....
I've never been a big fan of change and right now it's making me the worst person in the world to be around. I can guarantee that no one really wants to be around me right now because it just isn't a good time to be around me.
I'm not really one to handle change well and it is taking its toll on me right now and everyone around me. My husband seems to be the one taking the brunt of it right now and it's making my marriage a little awkward. I've done almost nothing in the past few days more than eat, sleep and shower and watch plenty of Disney channel. (I know that makes me very lame.)
I spent most of the morning taping all of the cards that we got from the wedding into my wedding book which now will not close. I then picked up all the bills that were on the floor but I still don't know where the light bill is. And all I can do is try to figure out how I'm going to pay the light bill for the next three months.
Right now I feel like it's the bottom of the ninth, down by one run, bases loaded, two outs and I'm up to bat. All I want to do is cry which usually causes more problems than it solves.
I want to know when life slows down or is it like this everyday for the rest of our lives until we die. Because if this is the way that everyday until I die is going to be I'm ready to throw in the towel already. I'm just sick of always being on the ropes fighting to get back to center.
I'm getting to a point where I just feel like I'm not ever going to make any kind of difference in the world. That I'm just going to be one of those nameless faceless people that are all around you but you have no idea what they do or what they mean to the world.
And everytime I turn around people are already talking about and getting ready for Christmas and its 17 or 18 weeks away. People get over it. I know that it's one of those wonderful times of year but starting it in October takes away the specialness of Christmas.
love ya!
I'm not really one to handle change well and it is taking its toll on me right now and everyone around me. My husband seems to be the one taking the brunt of it right now and it's making my marriage a little awkward. I've done almost nothing in the past few days more than eat, sleep and shower and watch plenty of Disney channel. (I know that makes me very lame.)
I spent most of the morning taping all of the cards that we got from the wedding into my wedding book which now will not close. I then picked up all the bills that were on the floor but I still don't know where the light bill is. And all I can do is try to figure out how I'm going to pay the light bill for the next three months.
Right now I feel like it's the bottom of the ninth, down by one run, bases loaded, two outs and I'm up to bat. All I want to do is cry which usually causes more problems than it solves.
I want to know when life slows down or is it like this everyday for the rest of our lives until we die. Because if this is the way that everyday until I die is going to be I'm ready to throw in the towel already. I'm just sick of always being on the ropes fighting to get back to center.
I'm getting to a point where I just feel like I'm not ever going to make any kind of difference in the world. That I'm just going to be one of those nameless faceless people that are all around you but you have no idea what they do or what they mean to the world.
And everytime I turn around people are already talking about and getting ready for Christmas and its 17 or 18 weeks away. People get over it. I know that it's one of those wonderful times of year but starting it in October takes away the specialness of Christmas.
love ya!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Random...
This is just going to be one of those random getting everything out of my head posts.
Why is summer now a totally new season on television? What happened to the days of catching up on what I missed?
Why is a meal that is fruit and carbs considered a healthy lunchtime meal for kids? Isn't that just setting them up for a sugar spike and then a sugar crash?
Why do people have so much stuff on their blog? Ads and this and that and so many things that make it so cluttered and hard to focus on the centerpiece...the actual thoughts and materials that you want to display?
What makes a blog so noteworthy? What makes it the blog that people are driven to? That they can't go to bed at night if they haven't stopped by to see what their favorite blogger has put up for the world to see?
Speaking of blogs, I've noticed that there are a lot of people that are really driven by the number of comments that they have at the end of the day. To me that just isn't what this is about. This is about putting all the thoughts in my head in some kind of order that makes sense and if people want to throw in their two cents that is fine. I don't have to listen to what they say, take it to heart or even acknowledge it. I probably will acknowledge it though.
Oh I really want to be crafty again. I want the time to make those cute things that I see over on Etsy. I really do. I want to be able to finish one of the many crafty things that are floating around our apartment.
I would like to be able to hold a thought in my head longer than two seconds. Which may be why I'm trying to do this right now. I'm not sure if it's just that I have so many things going on in my head that I can't think or what it is.
What happened to the time when you could eat whatever you want and not have the guilt that comces with eating anything and everything? When it was okay to eat and McDonalds and it was okay to eat a Pop Tart for breakfast. Those are the days that I miss because I have a box of Pop Tarts on the top of my fridge that are calling my name to free them from those shiny wrappers.
Then there is the whole image thing which I can't even begin to go into right now because that is a committment that I am not quite ready to make right now.
love ya!
Why is summer now a totally new season on television? What happened to the days of catching up on what I missed?
Why is a meal that is fruit and carbs considered a healthy lunchtime meal for kids? Isn't that just setting them up for a sugar spike and then a sugar crash?
Why do people have so much stuff on their blog? Ads and this and that and so many things that make it so cluttered and hard to focus on the centerpiece...the actual thoughts and materials that you want to display?
What makes a blog so noteworthy? What makes it the blog that people are driven to? That they can't go to bed at night if they haven't stopped by to see what their favorite blogger has put up for the world to see?
Speaking of blogs, I've noticed that there are a lot of people that are really driven by the number of comments that they have at the end of the day. To me that just isn't what this is about. This is about putting all the thoughts in my head in some kind of order that makes sense and if people want to throw in their two cents that is fine. I don't have to listen to what they say, take it to heart or even acknowledge it. I probably will acknowledge it though.
Oh I really want to be crafty again. I want the time to make those cute things that I see over on Etsy. I really do. I want to be able to finish one of the many crafty things that are floating around our apartment.
I would like to be able to hold a thought in my head longer than two seconds. Which may be why I'm trying to do this right now. I'm not sure if it's just that I have so many things going on in my head that I can't think or what it is.
What happened to the time when you could eat whatever you want and not have the guilt that comces with eating anything and everything? When it was okay to eat and McDonalds and it was okay to eat a Pop Tart for breakfast. Those are the days that I miss because I have a box of Pop Tarts on the top of my fridge that are calling my name to free them from those shiny wrappers.
Then there is the whole image thing which I can't even begin to go into right now because that is a committment that I am not quite ready to make right now.
love ya!
Stink...
I will have to try again because blogger just ate my post. It would have been nice for it to acknowledge whether or not it was good.
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love ya!
I don't understand...
I've spent most of the day looking at blogs and trying to figure a few things out which usually is just dangerous territory for most of the world.
There has been a lot of upheavel at work lately and it's causing a bit of chaos that is fun to sit and watch. There have been a few positions that have come open and a few that may be coming open soon if things don't straighten up. You're an adult you shouldn't have to have someone else hold your hand everyday when you do your job that you've been doing for over 6 months. That just isn't the way that a company should run with the boss always having to stand over you telling you how to do your job step by step.
There are just so many things that have been on my mind lately. Like why is summer now considered another season of television instead of a chance for me to catch up on everything that I didn't get to see during the regular season because I was watching something on another network. Because we are too cheap to have a DVR and the VCR has fallen out of favor with everyone. But I still want one. I really really want to get a DVD/VCR combo for Christmas. So far that's the Christmas list and Alice in Wonderland on DVD. I have a few movies that are on tape that I really want to watch without having to go to my mom's to watch them.
I do have to say that I'm a little sad about having to train someone to take my place at work but it's been good. It's given me a little bit less stress because it just does. I'm finally getting to show someone who is more than capable of doing it. Other people that I work with are not capable of even covering for me while I'm at lunch.
I don't understand why everyone I work with think that is okay for them to skip lunch. Not the skipping eating, the skipping clocking out for an hour, so that they get overtime. Everyone is supposed to take an hour for lunch and one day off a week and no one seems to care about that. It frustrates me because our boss has told everyone that isn't an option to work through lunch just because you want to and especially so that you can get off early. That makes me so frustrated because they do that all the time, leave early and then we don't have anyone to help in that last hour.
love ya!
There has been a lot of upheavel at work lately and it's causing a bit of chaos that is fun to sit and watch. There have been a few positions that have come open and a few that may be coming open soon if things don't straighten up. You're an adult you shouldn't have to have someone else hold your hand everyday when you do your job that you've been doing for over 6 months. That just isn't the way that a company should run with the boss always having to stand over you telling you how to do your job step by step.
There are just so many things that have been on my mind lately. Like why is summer now considered another season of television instead of a chance for me to catch up on everything that I didn't get to see during the regular season because I was watching something on another network. Because we are too cheap to have a DVR and the VCR has fallen out of favor with everyone. But I still want one. I really really want to get a DVD/VCR combo for Christmas. So far that's the Christmas list and Alice in Wonderland on DVD. I have a few movies that are on tape that I really want to watch without having to go to my mom's to watch them.
I do have to say that I'm a little sad about having to train someone to take my place at work but it's been good. It's given me a little bit less stress because it just does. I'm finally getting to show someone who is more than capable of doing it. Other people that I work with are not capable of even covering for me while I'm at lunch.
I don't understand why everyone I work with think that is okay for them to skip lunch. Not the skipping eating, the skipping clocking out for an hour, so that they get overtime. Everyone is supposed to take an hour for lunch and one day off a week and no one seems to care about that. It frustrates me because our boss has told everyone that isn't an option to work through lunch just because you want to and especially so that you can get off early. That makes me so frustrated because they do that all the time, leave early and then we don't have anyone to help in that last hour.
love ya!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Been a long week...
It has been a seriously long two weeks at work. I spent most of Saturday morning on Etsy looking at all kinds of goodies and it makes me want to get my house clean so that the creative juices can come out. My house is a disaster zone and I hope to get that going in the next week so that I can get all the creative energy gone.
love ya!
love ya!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Monday....
Yep like the song says, "just another manic Monday" now its not one of my favorite songs but it is the truth. There is so much to do and so little time to do it. I'm trying to figure out why life hits you like a ton of bricks. There is no easing into it, it's just like bam life.
Last week we had to buy a new car. That's one of the worst things in the world to have to do all of a sudden. It was like out of nowhere we had to get a new car. And it wouldn't have been so bad if we didn't have to have two cars. If we had been able to put it off for a few months it would have been better but then again that is not how life goes. Now I'm stuck in a frantic race against a financial clock to find a job. Trying to figure out how to get pennies out of everything that we have. I'm not sure if it's going to work. If anyone has tips I would love to know how to do it.
Its bad when you find yourself googling how to make money online. Which is kind of a pain in the butt to figure out what you can do that isn't going to cost you out the tail end. I really have taken to filling out any and all of those surveys that are advertised on the reciepts for every place that I've been in the last few weeks. I mean it doesn't take that much of my time and if it works it does. No harm no foul to do it.
I think I may look into one of those websites where they pay your for essays that you've written...yeah I'm that desperate to make some money. I'm willing to do high school homework for any kind of money. So need help I'm here.
It has kind of made me super neurotic about spending any bit of money right now. Which is making my birthday celebrations kinda of blah and boring because it is hard to think about having fun and spending money when you know that you're running low on it very fast.
have to go do some work.
love ya!
Last week we had to buy a new car. That's one of the worst things in the world to have to do all of a sudden. It was like out of nowhere we had to get a new car. And it wouldn't have been so bad if we didn't have to have two cars. If we had been able to put it off for a few months it would have been better but then again that is not how life goes. Now I'm stuck in a frantic race against a financial clock to find a job. Trying to figure out how to get pennies out of everything that we have. I'm not sure if it's going to work. If anyone has tips I would love to know how to do it.
Its bad when you find yourself googling how to make money online. Which is kind of a pain in the butt to figure out what you can do that isn't going to cost you out the tail end. I really have taken to filling out any and all of those surveys that are advertised on the reciepts for every place that I've been in the last few weeks. I mean it doesn't take that much of my time and if it works it does. No harm no foul to do it.
I think I may look into one of those websites where they pay your for essays that you've written...yeah I'm that desperate to make some money. I'm willing to do high school homework for any kind of money. So need help I'm here.
It has kind of made me super neurotic about spending any bit of money right now. Which is making my birthday celebrations kinda of blah and boring because it is hard to think about having fun and spending money when you know that you're running low on it very fast.
have to go do some work.
love ya!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Summer...
I can't believe that it's almost the end of the summer and well I don't feel like anything has changed. I'm still spinning in the same little circle that I was when it started. It makes me sad. I wish that I could be posting news that was happy or sad but I don't have any. I have pictures to put up but my camera is upstairs and I don't really have the patience to try and deal with the camera and the computer being slow. And outside it's trying to rain which is making my internet go crazy.
I feel all full inside and no way to get it out. I really want to run. To just get out and run until I hurt. I've gotten all numb and that makes me crazy. That I want to run until I hurt just to get to a point where I can feel pain. I'm not sure why feeling numb like that makes me want to run. I don't even run in general. I guess it's really just a way to clear my mind until I can just do something to get it all out in general.
I love the fact that my boss is also my landlord. At times it's a little bit of an annoyance but other times it makes it great. There is a lot going on right now and atleast I can say that it has nothing to do with me. The next thing that I want is for my cousin to put up the fence around the little patch of patio that we have. Eventually I will get up some pics from around the apartment but haven't much had the time.
love ya!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
casualty of work...
It was a long day at work and there was a casualty. Hopefully I can get the picture on here before I'm done. We have a problem at work with pens running away. So to alleviate that issue in my office, I took the box of spoons that came with the office and attached them to several of the gimmie pens from the Verizon office. That way no one would take them and if they did, then I would be able to find them.
After a year, the last remaining spoon fell victim to my desk chair. Which is the third one that I've had in the last year. I killed him. He was a good little trooper and he will be missed. I didn't even have the heart to keep the pen. I had to put in him the trash can, which he fought. But he will be missed and I will have to find something else to pass on to the next person to take my place.
love ya!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Frustrated...
Getting a little bit frustrated about everything right now. It just seems like I can't do anything right. Everything is going all to pieces and I can't do anything about it. I guess I should just stop and think about what I really want right now and maybe things will start to look up.
love ya!
love ya!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
happy fourth...
Happy fourth!
There's not much more that I can say today.
Just be careful and have as much fun as possible while being safe.
love ya!
There's not much more that I can say today.
Just be careful and have as much fun as possible while being safe.
love ya!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Fire work pics...
These are part of the pics I took of the shirts that I did the other night. This is the front of one the shirts that I did. I actually did this one for one of the owners.
And then this is the back of mine. Not sure what I'm going to do with the front yet. I hate having a whole lot spread out on the shirt because it makes it hard to iron them after I air dry it. And those fireworks at the top are from New Year's Eve at the fireworks stand or one night leading up to it.
I like fireworks.
love ya!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Sticky fingers
My fingers are all sticky from blinging shirts. The glue is awesome but it makes a mess and then I end up with strings of glue all over the place and under my finger nails. I actually woke up with some of it underneath my finger nails. I also woke up with my lip split and scabbed over because it's summer and my lips are all dry. I was a little worried because it was right in the center of my lip and all black.
It has gotten better but it just really isn't the way that you want to wake up to. I have pictures of the shirts that I blinged but I'm not done with mine. I've gotten the back done but couldn't do the front yet. Not sure what I want to do with it. I've done the fronts of three other ones so I have an idea of what I want to do but not really sure how much I'm going to put on the front.
Then on top of that I tried to make cake pops this morning and well it really didn't go so well. It was a disaster that I will have to clean up when I get home. For some reason...well let's just say that it didn't go so well at all.
love ya!
It has gotten better but it just really isn't the way that you want to wake up to. I have pictures of the shirts that I blinged but I'm not done with mine. I've gotten the back done but couldn't do the front yet. Not sure what I want to do with it. I've done the fronts of three other ones so I have an idea of what I want to do but not really sure how much I'm going to put on the front.
Then on top of that I tried to make cake pops this morning and well it really didn't go so well. It was a disaster that I will have to clean up when I get home. For some reason...well let's just say that it didn't go so well at all.
love ya!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Blah, blah blah
That's really all that I can say right now. Everything just seems to be so blah right now. There is nothing I can do to get out of this rut that I'm in. I'm in a horrible rut and I really don't care about what is going on any mire. I just want things to be over. I want to give up. I really really want to just give up because life just seems so hard and things aren't getting any easier. The more that I have to do the more that I see things really aren't going anywhere. I'm just stuck in this wretched limbo land where nothing happens but disappointment.
I want a new job. I'm so sick of the one I have that I can't stand it anymore because no matter what I do it doesn't ever seem to be enough or good enough for someone else. I bust my butt to try and get things done and every once in awhile there are a few things that don't get done and those are what I get busted for and it's starting to piss me off. I haven't gotten a you're doing good at this or that but if I do anything wrong they sure are quick to bust me for that and it's stupid.
We have people who screw things up left and right and they don't ever get in any kind of trouble. I can't help that I forgot to label one thing on the shelf and then I was in the shower when they called and I couldn't answer them. Ten minutes of the entire morning I was in the shower and that's when they call me. So I try to call them back and no one will answer the phone at work I had to call someone on their cell phone. I really didn't want this job. I really haven't ever felt comfortable doing this job and they don't seem to care about it. That I guess is my fault and something that I'm going to have to deal with. But I think that my bosses may be the reason why I'm not getting any interviews any where because they know that they aren't going to be able to replace me. No one is going to put up with the amount of stuff that I have to get what I get an hour for this job. It sucks. It really really does suck.
love ya!
I want a new job. I'm so sick of the one I have that I can't stand it anymore because no matter what I do it doesn't ever seem to be enough or good enough for someone else. I bust my butt to try and get things done and every once in awhile there are a few things that don't get done and those are what I get busted for and it's starting to piss me off. I haven't gotten a you're doing good at this or that but if I do anything wrong they sure are quick to bust me for that and it's stupid.
We have people who screw things up left and right and they don't ever get in any kind of trouble. I can't help that I forgot to label one thing on the shelf and then I was in the shower when they called and I couldn't answer them. Ten minutes of the entire morning I was in the shower and that's when they call me. So I try to call them back and no one will answer the phone at work I had to call someone on their cell phone. I really didn't want this job. I really haven't ever felt comfortable doing this job and they don't seem to care about it. That I guess is my fault and something that I'm going to have to deal with. But I think that my bosses may be the reason why I'm not getting any interviews any where because they know that they aren't going to be able to replace me. No one is going to put up with the amount of stuff that I have to get what I get an hour for this job. It sucks. It really really does suck.
love ya!
Sunday, June 20, 2010
What we become...
What we become is our gift to God.
I've never really thought about that and what it really means. What do we have to do to become a gift? How much of our lives do we have devout to good deeds to become a gift?
Is it merely the fact that that we get up everyday and don't kill ourselves?
I'm not sure what kind of gift it is that we have to become in order to be great or anything like that. Or is it really just the fact that we get up and live our lives everyday and we just show the world that there is something good in the world.
It just seems like something that sets us up for failure. That we have this goal in life that is almost completely unreachable.
Maybe it's more or less about the pressure that it puts on us to try and become something that we won't really know what it is. We don't get to find out what that gift is until the end. Then that is really why we have to try and strive for the best. Because we can't see the fingerprints that we leave on other people. That's what's important about living life...is the fingerprints that we leave behind. Everyday we touch the lives of the people around us even if we just give them a smile that's all it takes to touch a life that may be all that it takes.
Love ya!
I've never really thought about that and what it really means. What do we have to do to become a gift? How much of our lives do we have devout to good deeds to become a gift?
Is it merely the fact that that we get up everyday and don't kill ourselves?
I'm not sure what kind of gift it is that we have to become in order to be great or anything like that. Or is it really just the fact that we get up and live our lives everyday and we just show the world that there is something good in the world.
It just seems like something that sets us up for failure. That we have this goal in life that is almost completely unreachable.
Maybe it's more or less about the pressure that it puts on us to try and become something that we won't really know what it is. We don't get to find out what that gift is until the end. Then that is really why we have to try and strive for the best. Because we can't see the fingerprints that we leave on other people. That's what's important about living life...is the fingerprints that we leave behind. Everyday we touch the lives of the people around us even if we just give them a smile that's all it takes to touch a life that may be all that it takes.
Love ya!
Thinking
I've been thinking about a lot of things. Right now money seems to be one of the things that keeps making it to the front of my thought process. I've even considered the whole getting paid for blogging but I'm not sure if I'm quite ready to sell myself for a few bucks more a month and having to change the way that I blog and having to think about the quality of what I write.
I'm just not sure if I could stand to be one of those people who forces their readers to dodge adds while they read. To me that just seems like a corporate sellout of some kind at that point. You really can't be making that much money off of the adds to really make them worth the time and annoyance to your followers.
I know that my blog really isn't that much of something to follow but I hope that one day it does get to that point. Right now there are just so many things that I need to be doing that blogging somehow has gone to the bottom of the list. I really haven't had the time that I had before because I no longer have my computer in my bedroom. That was really the only reason that I blogged at the level that I did over on Xanga. And there was the insomnia that has cleared up a little.
We actually have no electronics in the bedroom save for the cell phones to charge and the alarm clock. It's just the only way that I can sleep. We only have one TV and that stays downstairs because it would be awkward to have people over and have to watch TV in our bedroom. We also only have one TV and that's enough for just the two of us.
love ya!
I'm just not sure if I could stand to be one of those people who forces their readers to dodge adds while they read. To me that just seems like a corporate sellout of some kind at that point. You really can't be making that much money off of the adds to really make them worth the time and annoyance to your followers.
I know that my blog really isn't that much of something to follow but I hope that one day it does get to that point. Right now there are just so many things that I need to be doing that blogging somehow has gone to the bottom of the list. I really haven't had the time that I had before because I no longer have my computer in my bedroom. That was really the only reason that I blogged at the level that I did over on Xanga. And there was the insomnia that has cleared up a little.
We actually have no electronics in the bedroom save for the cell phones to charge and the alarm clock. It's just the only way that I can sleep. We only have one TV and that stays downstairs because it would be awkward to have people over and have to watch TV in our bedroom. We also only have one TV and that's enough for just the two of us.
love ya!
Friday, June 18, 2010
lunch...
Recently I've been following a few blogs that talk about lunch, which are linked on the side and it's really gotten me thinking about taking my lunch to work. Right now, my husband and I just come home for lunch because we work together and it works, except that he has been busy come lunch time and has just worked through lunch. On those days I would just take my lunch with me but I never know how days are gonna run and days like today I have to leave the building for my own sanity. That however is another story all together.
But I am currently looking for a job in the teaching world and would appreciate any good feelings, prayers, or vibes that you could send my way depending on which way you align yourself spiritually. These sites however have made me rethink back to lunch when I was in school and just the thought of packing my own lunch once again.
I'm not sure why I get so excited about the thought of packing my lunch again. Just the thought of something other than a boring old sandwich or something along that lines. Right now lunch is usually some kind of sandwich or leftovers from the night before. Which leftovers aren't that bad just not usually something light and simple that can be eaten for lunch.
I don't eat at work amymore because I don't get a lunch break. I've had customers come to the break room and ask me questions. Or I get paged while I'm down there just trying to relax for a few minutes before I have to go back to work. Or my boss comes down there and asks me to come clock in and help because things get chaotic. Which happens all the time when they're gone and they leave the store and usually stay gone more than an hour.
But I'm really liking the whole idea of the bento box lunch. They seem healthier and waste free. I like the ideas that I've seen so far.
love ya!
But I am currently looking for a job in the teaching world and would appreciate any good feelings, prayers, or vibes that you could send my way depending on which way you align yourself spiritually. These sites however have made me rethink back to lunch when I was in school and just the thought of packing my own lunch once again.
I'm not sure why I get so excited about the thought of packing my lunch again. Just the thought of something other than a boring old sandwich or something along that lines. Right now lunch is usually some kind of sandwich or leftovers from the night before. Which leftovers aren't that bad just not usually something light and simple that can be eaten for lunch.
I don't eat at work amymore because I don't get a lunch break. I've had customers come to the break room and ask me questions. Or I get paged while I'm down there just trying to relax for a few minutes before I have to go back to work. Or my boss comes down there and asks me to come clock in and help because things get chaotic. Which happens all the time when they're gone and they leave the store and usually stay gone more than an hour.
But I'm really liking the whole idea of the bento box lunch. They seem healthier and waste free. I like the ideas that I've seen so far.
love ya!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
So much to say...
I have pictures that I've just been too lazy to put up here. Got pics of an Oreo Cheesecake that I made. As soon as my tattoo heals up I will be putting up a pic of that but now that it's peeling I don't want to put it up yet. It just doesn't look that pretty right now and well to me...it's art and I want to display it at its best.
love ya!
love ya!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Playing around...
Now I'm just playing with the blog. Trying to work out how to put pictures up here. So there may or may not be anything else that I put up for the next few days.
love ya!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A little bit of a rant...
I just have to say this because its been on my mind for a bit because of my job or really my old job. It was working with cell phones.
If you can't turn it on I'm not going to be able to. If it won't come back on if I turn it off I need to know that before I take the battery out.
If the screen is broken I need to know that too before I take the battery off.
If it won't charge then I certainly can't move anything over to your new phone.
If you can't do it then most likely I won't be able to get your phone to do it. On a rare occasion I can but not always.
I can't tell you why your bill is so high if you don't bring it to me.
Don't know your password to your account I can't help you.
I cannot give you a new phone.
Nothing is free.
Don't cobb an attitude with me.
It's a phone it will get dirty.
When you don't pay your bill your phone will get cutoff. They will turn it back on when you pay the past due amount.
Look at your bill. If you read through the whole thing you will find out why your bill is so astronomical. Do that first. Call the company directly to straighten it out.
love ya!
If you can't turn it on I'm not going to be able to. If it won't come back on if I turn it off I need to know that before I take the battery out.
If the screen is broken I need to know that too before I take the battery off.
If it won't charge then I certainly can't move anything over to your new phone.
If you can't do it then most likely I won't be able to get your phone to do it. On a rare occasion I can but not always.
I can't tell you why your bill is so high if you don't bring it to me.
Don't know your password to your account I can't help you.
I cannot give you a new phone.
Nothing is free.
Don't cobb an attitude with me.
It's a phone it will get dirty.
When you don't pay your bill your phone will get cutoff. They will turn it back on when you pay the past due amount.
Look at your bill. If you read through the whole thing you will find out why your bill is so astronomical. Do that first. Call the company directly to straighten it out.
love ya!
Friday, May 21, 2010
My job...
I come home and dream about my job and worse than that it makes me highly conscience of what is going on in the background of most shows.
I work at a hardware store over on the appliance and electronic side. So when I watch tv I'm more interested in what kind of appliances are in the kitchen. Looking to see whether there are Wolf ranges or Viking ranges in the kitchens in most of the high end kitchens that most tv characters seem to have. Even though they never seem to use the kitchen they have ranges that are upwards of several to tens of thousands of dollars. Just depending on how many burners you want, a grill those kinds of little extras. Whether they have a Sub-Zero fridge or a Viking.
And I really judge you when you have a Kenmore...anything. They are not very repair person friendly unless you like having Sears come out to your house to work on it.
I'm losing steam so I'm gonna call it quits for the night.
love ya!
I work at a hardware store over on the appliance and electronic side. So when I watch tv I'm more interested in what kind of appliances are in the kitchen. Looking to see whether there are Wolf ranges or Viking ranges in the kitchens in most of the high end kitchens that most tv characters seem to have. Even though they never seem to use the kitchen they have ranges that are upwards of several to tens of thousands of dollars. Just depending on how many burners you want, a grill those kinds of little extras. Whether they have a Sub-Zero fridge or a Viking.
And I really judge you when you have a Kenmore...anything. They are not very repair person friendly unless you like having Sears come out to your house to work on it.
I'm losing steam so I'm gonna call it quits for the night.
love ya!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Don't get me wrong...
I love my husband with every ounce of my being but my wedding wasn't exactly perfect. But I think that is hollywood's fault.
We see weddings in movies that have endless budgets and endless people to make it happen. I can't tell you how many emotional breakdowns there were before the wedding trying to get it ready. Even one in front of my future brother-in-law that was just way more than it should have been. But I'd had it with everyone telling me how they were going to decorate for my wedding. I wanted it my way and I was tired off my little tail feathers and wanted it over. That was the point where you wish you had just eloped.
But my husband told me many times that he knew that I wouldn't be happy if we eloped and he wanted me to be happy. But there was a small part of me that knew that I would be resentful if I didn't have a real wedding, even if the preacher said the wrong name.
I remember that once we locked eyes as I was walking down the aisle, we never took them off each other. There was no way that I could take my eyes off him because I knew that I just couldn't. Maybe if I can get the pictures from my mom, I'll put some up here. I only have a few that I shot before the wedding.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
So tired...
So tired and so many things going through my mind. I'm not sure if I'm going to make it to tomorrow and my afternoon nap. Oh man am I looking forward to my Sunday afternoon nap.
Anyway to get to where I want to be and get off the complaining train there are just so many things running back through the head. And I can't remember what all those things were that I said I'd get around to the other day.
Oh...I remember.
I did not like my wedding cake. I did not like the icing. When I want cake with icing I want icing not that fluffy whipped crap that doesn't taste all sugary like icing. Its airy and gross. I want to get a sugar buzz when I eat cake. I didn't like the way it looked I really wanted to cry when I saw it. And when I asked for strawberry filling I meant a strawberry jam filling. Not actually strawberries sliced up in between the layers of cake.
love ya!
Anyway to get to where I want to be and get off the complaining train there are just so many things running back through the head. And I can't remember what all those things were that I said I'd get around to the other day.
Oh...I remember.
I did not like my wedding cake. I did not like the icing. When I want cake with icing I want icing not that fluffy whipped crap that doesn't taste all sugary like icing. Its airy and gross. I want to get a sugar buzz when I eat cake. I didn't like the way it looked I really wanted to cry when I saw it. And when I asked for strawberry filling I meant a strawberry jam filling. Not actually strawberries sliced up in between the layers of cake.
love ya!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Out of the ordinary
I know that normally I don't post more than once a day but I just can't help it. Lately there have been far too many things on my mind and I just have to even if it means just simple one liners that I may or may not ever expand on. So here goes...
It really can't be that hard to serve healthy food in schools. I know that kids are gonna eat the stuff that isn't good for them but if they don't have a choice they may just eat what is good for them.
The only person keeping you down is yourself. Not the man or whatever other force you think is keeping you under their thumb.
How can you ever get the job experience if every job wants you to already have experience?
I'm trying to make an extra effort that's why I sent you the email, not because I want to get an edge over the other applicants. Oh wait that's what I'm doing, I don't expect anything special. I just want you to know that I really want a chance.
Good grief! Just give me a chance.
Don't get angry that the job doesn't get done when I'm trying to juggle too many things already. If it's your responsibility then you do it.
NO one will do what I do for what you currently pay me.
love ya!
it makes me feel a little lighter. thank you!
It really can't be that hard to serve healthy food in schools. I know that kids are gonna eat the stuff that isn't good for them but if they don't have a choice they may just eat what is good for them.
The only person keeping you down is yourself. Not the man or whatever other force you think is keeping you under their thumb.
How can you ever get the job experience if every job wants you to already have experience?
I'm trying to make an extra effort that's why I sent you the email, not because I want to get an edge over the other applicants. Oh wait that's what I'm doing, I don't expect anything special. I just want you to know that I really want a chance.
Good grief! Just give me a chance.
Don't get angry that the job doesn't get done when I'm trying to juggle too many things already. If it's your responsibility then you do it.
NO one will do what I do for what you currently pay me.
love ya!
it makes me feel a little lighter. thank you!
It's Wednesday...what more can I say?
It's Wednesday which mean it's not really half way through the week but it is. When you work on Saturdays you learn to treasure things that other people don't and you regret things too. Where on Thursday night you're getting ready to make plans for Friday night because you know you can stay out late, I'm lucky if I can make it all the way through the Mentalist without just giving in and crawling upstairs and into bed.
My weekends are split between Sunday like normal folk and Tuesday which does make Monday quite a drag. And where Thursdays are the longest day of the week I have two. There are no celebrations that it's Friday because for me it isn't.
We did get the closet door put up which makes me feel so much better. There's nothing worse than this big gaping hole inthe wall across from your bed and it should make it a little cooler in the bedroom.
Hearing a few things which makes me feel better but still not going to get my hopes up yet. Too much to lose...
love ya!
My weekends are split between Sunday like normal folk and Tuesday which does make Monday quite a drag. And where Thursdays are the longest day of the week I have two. There are no celebrations that it's Friday because for me it isn't.
We did get the closet door put up which makes me feel so much better. There's nothing worse than this big gaping hole inthe wall across from your bed and it should make it a little cooler in the bedroom.
Hearing a few things which makes me feel better but still not going to get my hopes up yet. Too much to lose...
love ya!
Monday, May 10, 2010
Antsy...
I've been a little antsy lately and I can't help it...I don't know why I'm the way that I am. I just get antsy...which has made it hard to do a lot in life. Maybe restless is a better word than antsy. I get bored frequently with what I'm doing and I want to change. I have flighty tendencies that cause me to not be able to finish projects without someone standing over me making me try to finish.
I'm surprised that I didn't change my major seventeen times when I was in college but I just couldn't stand to give up my history classes. I really couldn't give up fun books that made you think and forced you into something that might make you uncomfortable. And my English classes because it's totally awesome when you get to go to the bookstore and buy The Stinky Cheese Man for class and you get to carry it around campus.
I usually have a problem getting what I need done for work actually done.
love ya!
I'm surprised that I didn't change my major seventeen times when I was in college but I just couldn't stand to give up my history classes. I really couldn't give up fun books that made you think and forced you into something that might make you uncomfortable. And my English classes because it's totally awesome when you get to go to the bookstore and buy The Stinky Cheese Man for class and you get to carry it around campus.
I usually have a problem getting what I need done for work actually done.
love ya!
Friday, May 7, 2010
Taking a break...
I've decided that right now I have to take a mental break. I just can't stand it anymore trying to look for a job. I don't even get proper rejection all I get is no answer. I would kill to have an interview where I bumble through all the niceties and then get told that someone else got the job. I can't even get that.
It's killing a part of me. A lot of me. A lot of me deep down inside. And I can't get that part back ever.
love ya!
It's killing a part of me. A lot of me. A lot of me deep down inside. And I can't get that part back ever.
love ya!
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
Ohh..
I'm so tired and sore. I've spent the afternoon running back and forth between my office and two others trying to keep up with the demand of a Friday afternoon.
I spent three hours last night filling out the same job application for three different jobs at three different places and have a list of more to do.
I have other things to do so I have to call it quits early.
love ya!
I spent three hours last night filling out the same job application for three different jobs at three different places and have a list of more to do.
I have other things to do so I have to call it quits early.
love ya!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thinking back...
The more I read Mrs. Q over at Fed Up With school lunch, the more it has made me think about being in grade school. Trying to figure out if those school lunches I use to eat were really that unhealthy or if it's been in more recent years that they've headed south.
I remember that we never had food that came in a package unless it was ice cream or some kind of frozen slushie. And I know that I never ate the slushie because I never could get it open. And there were laways real trays with real utensils to eat with.
We would line up in class before we left for lunch, people who brought their lunch first and then the rest of the class in alphabetic order. We all had a number that we had to remember to say that we had eaten. There was a lady who sat at the entry to the lunch line with a legal sheet of paper with all the numbers on it and she marked out your number when you got to the door.
There was no chocolate milk until second or third grade, but we always hoped when we opened the carton that it would be chocolate. We had no concept that chocolate milk came in brown cartons.
I loved the pizza, and the days when we had steak fingers because it meant an ice cream scoop of rice sans gravy. I think that teachers got gravy but students didn't. I really wanted the gravy. To me that's the best part of mashed potatoes.
I remember that in second grade or so we transitioned to the plastic sporks. When there were carrot sticks there was no ranch dressing to be had, just plain jane carrot sticks.
I'm sure that there's more that I could wax on about but right now it's time to take a break.
love ya!
I remember that we never had food that came in a package unless it was ice cream or some kind of frozen slushie. And I know that I never ate the slushie because I never could get it open. And there were laways real trays with real utensils to eat with.
We would line up in class before we left for lunch, people who brought their lunch first and then the rest of the class in alphabetic order. We all had a number that we had to remember to say that we had eaten. There was a lady who sat at the entry to the lunch line with a legal sheet of paper with all the numbers on it and she marked out your number when you got to the door.
There was no chocolate milk until second or third grade, but we always hoped when we opened the carton that it would be chocolate. We had no concept that chocolate milk came in brown cartons.
I loved the pizza, and the days when we had steak fingers because it meant an ice cream scoop of rice sans gravy. I think that teachers got gravy but students didn't. I really wanted the gravy. To me that's the best part of mashed potatoes.
I remember that in second grade or so we transitioned to the plastic sporks. When there were carrot sticks there was no ranch dressing to be had, just plain jane carrot sticks.
I'm sure that there's more that I could wax on about but right now it's time to take a break.
love ya!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
The internet...
I have to say as much as I can hate my job I love the perks that it affords me at times. Right now I'm sitting by the pond hooked up to the internet by Verizon's wonderful Mifi2200. It's the demo line and I must say that I like what I can do with it but probably will just add the tethering option to my husband's phone and go that route, it's about the same price and I won't have to worry about other people trying to steal my wifi. I was surprized to find that there are about four wireless networks that I can pick up in my living room half of which are protected and the others are too weak to even bother with trying.
I love it though it's nice and relaxing finally being able to get on the internet for fun while not having to worry about it.
love ya!
I love it though it's nice and relaxing finally being able to get on the internet for fun while not having to worry about it.
love ya!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Post Wedding...
The wedding is over. I've got discs with pictures in my purse. I have stuff everywhere. My clothes are in a pile flowing out of the clothes. I have no idea where any of my clothes are that I wear on a regular basis. Every pair of jeans I can find have holes in them and not the ones you can see, those sly ones along the seams and pockets that are only visible when stretched across your hips and tailend. My husband has informed me several times this week what color panties I have on because of that.
I can't cook anything right now unless it goes in the microwave, toaster, crockpot, deep fryer or straight out of the box as is. That is my lunch time goal on Monday. Post office to pickup a package and then to the city to get the gas cut on because I want a fried egg!
love ya!
I can't cook anything right now unless it goes in the microwave, toaster, crockpot, deep fryer or straight out of the box as is. That is my lunch time goal on Monday. Post office to pickup a package and then to the city to get the gas cut on because I want a fried egg!
love ya!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Oops...
It's been a while I know. I know. I'm workin' on it. Really I have to promise you that.
Trying to get ready for the wedding and all that. I may post some pics after I recover. Of course I've also come to the realization that I have no pictures of me with my sweetie. Yes totally embarrassing that we have no pictures together and the ones we have are cell snapshots. And those are always of such awesome quality.
Been pretty crazy at work and there and when I say that I kinda mean it more in a sense of the inmates running the asylum. (I think I mean it too.)
love ya! gotta run
Trying to get ready for the wedding and all that. I may post some pics after I recover. Of course I've also come to the realization that I have no pictures of me with my sweetie. Yes totally embarrassing that we have no pictures together and the ones we have are cell snapshots. And those are always of such awesome quality.
Been pretty crazy at work and there and when I say that I kinda mean it more in a sense of the inmates running the asylum. (I think I mean it too.)
love ya! gotta run
Thursday, February 18, 2010
37 days and counting down...
There are 37 days until the wedding and I feel completely unprepared. I'm having that whole I'm forgetting things feeling. Whether it's things in general or actually things that need to be done. I made a list of things that need to be done around the house before then and I have no idea how to get them all accomplished. It's gonna be insane for the next few weeks and I'm going to try not to get myself into too much trouble but I know that it's too late.
The sinus drainage kicked in the other night which means I'm on track to get strep throat which will make me unbearable until it's gone. Or it might be the fact that in all the chaos I haven't been able to clean the water bottle that I keep next to my bed. I'm betting on that being the culprit. It's too late now, I just need to start eating the yogurt in the fridge and maybe this will clear up before I kill anyone.
I finally got inventory done which has been the major thing keeping me from getting around to do blogging at work. We've hit the late winter lull. We survived the big freeze that had everyone in the state in a panic to cover pipes and plants. After all of that was finally repaired it's been good. There are still a few crazy bursts every once in awhile but they shouldn't start kicking back up until mid-March when people start needing to get out the mowers and the weedeaters. I've got one rider in the show that needs to be fixed. I should have that ready to go hopefully tomorrow if not Monday, which means once again that my shop will be completely done. Everything in there will be fixed and ready for pickup.
I wish I could say the same thing about the boards because they're starting to look like monstrous paper eating machines. I've got things that need to be looked at in the shop. I have more parts on backorder than I could ever imagine. Some with no eta, which makes me want to cry. Then there's the shelf of things that have been ordered which has fallen victim in the last few weeks to me stealing from there for new customers.
I'm not going to order a part that I've had sitting on the shelf because you said that you would come pick up 6 months ago. I keep the tickets in case someone decides that they really need it later on I can just reorder but at this point it looks pretty slim on that happening.
I ave to put two orders in today because it seems like right about the time I put an order in then someone comes in and wants one tiny thing and they want it asap.
Still looking for a teaching job but they're few and far between right now. I found one but I don't want to start this close to the wedding because then my head may actually explode and I go crazy psycho nuts on someone and ruin the chances of ever getting a job. But I'll be patient and wait and see what I can find a little closer to home.
We're still waiting for Swank to move out of the apartment so that they can get it cleaned up and then we can start trying to move in. Which is a whole 'nother story since furniture is few and far between at the moment. We have a couch, a tv, my furniture which I'm still using but will gladly start moving over there as soon as I can, and a bed sans mattress and box set. That's what we're waiting on. No point in hauling it to his place to have to haul it back and neither one of us have a place to store it yet.
gotta go, love ya!
The sinus drainage kicked in the other night which means I'm on track to get strep throat which will make me unbearable until it's gone. Or it might be the fact that in all the chaos I haven't been able to clean the water bottle that I keep next to my bed. I'm betting on that being the culprit. It's too late now, I just need to start eating the yogurt in the fridge and maybe this will clear up before I kill anyone.
I finally got inventory done which has been the major thing keeping me from getting around to do blogging at work. We've hit the late winter lull. We survived the big freeze that had everyone in the state in a panic to cover pipes and plants. After all of that was finally repaired it's been good. There are still a few crazy bursts every once in awhile but they shouldn't start kicking back up until mid-March when people start needing to get out the mowers and the weedeaters. I've got one rider in the show that needs to be fixed. I should have that ready to go hopefully tomorrow if not Monday, which means once again that my shop will be completely done. Everything in there will be fixed and ready for pickup.
I wish I could say the same thing about the boards because they're starting to look like monstrous paper eating machines. I've got things that need to be looked at in the shop. I have more parts on backorder than I could ever imagine. Some with no eta, which makes me want to cry. Then there's the shelf of things that have been ordered which has fallen victim in the last few weeks to me stealing from there for new customers.
I'm not going to order a part that I've had sitting on the shelf because you said that you would come pick up 6 months ago. I keep the tickets in case someone decides that they really need it later on I can just reorder but at this point it looks pretty slim on that happening.
I ave to put two orders in today because it seems like right about the time I put an order in then someone comes in and wants one tiny thing and they want it asap.
Still looking for a teaching job but they're few and far between right now. I found one but I don't want to start this close to the wedding because then my head may actually explode and I go crazy psycho nuts on someone and ruin the chances of ever getting a job. But I'll be patient and wait and see what I can find a little closer to home.
We're still waiting for Swank to move out of the apartment so that they can get it cleaned up and then we can start trying to move in. Which is a whole 'nother story since furniture is few and far between at the moment. We have a couch, a tv, my furniture which I'm still using but will gladly start moving over there as soon as I can, and a bed sans mattress and box set. That's what we're waiting on. No point in hauling it to his place to have to haul it back and neither one of us have a place to store it yet.
gotta go, love ya!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Of course...
I had to post while I had this still on my mind. But ABC just cancelled 'Ugly Betty' and all I could say is duh.
I mean I loved the premise of the show. It was good it was what we all knew was going on. Normal people just trying to make it in a world where things aren't normal.
The article talks about the move from one night to the other and yes I can agree that killed it a little but it got off track. It got away from what it set out to do. I was watching a few weeks ago and that wasn't the Betty that I knew. She seemed...different. She seemed to have lost a few pounds, her hair was a little more coiffed and well she wasn't as 'ugly' in the way she was dressing.
She had changed. And not in a way that I was pleased with. I hope that if I had been religiously watching the show that it was a subtle change but this seemed like a real slap in the face to me how much she had changed.
I mean I loved the premise of the show. It was good it was what we all knew was going on. Normal people just trying to make it in a world where things aren't normal.
The article talks about the move from one night to the other and yes I can agree that killed it a little but it got off track. It got away from what it set out to do. I was watching a few weeks ago and that wasn't the Betty that I knew. She seemed...different. She seemed to have lost a few pounds, her hair was a little more coiffed and well she wasn't as 'ugly' in the way she was dressing.
She had changed. And not in a way that I was pleased with. I hope that if I had been religiously watching the show that it was a subtle change but this seemed like a real slap in the face to me how much she had changed.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
New Year
It's a little late in the new year to post a new year post but it's the first time that things have gotten to a steady pace for me to try and get something tapped out.
We do a lot of 90 to nothin' around here and that's what I've been faced with for the last few weeks and it doesn't look like an end is anywhere in the future. Around here the saying "sleep when you're dead" has alot of truth to it. I just get my naps where I can if that means at 5:30 in the afternoon it means I spend a little quality time with the pillow.
Problems have been fixed and things are looking like they're closer to right side up but I'm not quite sure.
love ya!
We do a lot of 90 to nothin' around here and that's what I've been faced with for the last few weeks and it doesn't look like an end is anywhere in the future. Around here the saying "sleep when you're dead" has alot of truth to it. I just get my naps where I can if that means at 5:30 in the afternoon it means I spend a little quality time with the pillow.
Problems have been fixed and things are looking like they're closer to right side up but I'm not quite sure.
love ya!
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