Last one...

This is probably the last post of the year that I meant to write last night and was kicked off the internet repeatedly. Been watching a few movies on tv and they have really made me think about where I want to take my writing. All the stories that you see follow the same pattern. The stories are all from the same perspective. The girl in in love with a guy who has no clue that she exists and if he does, he treats her like a little sister. Someone she knows comes in and steals him away fro her. Then she just goes along with it all, even though inside she is dying and being torn apart. Torn between her feelings for him and for her friend. Eventually the stress and strain causes her to crack and ruin everything. Because after all of these years of hiding her true feelings she lets it all out. You have this period where no one talks to each other, but then all of a sudden they make up like nothing ever happened, that no feelings were hurt. We all know in reality that this isn't really how it happens. Especially that complete Romeo and Juliet sorry story and confessing that he's been a fool.

I guess for me that just doesn't satisfy. I know that life doesn't wrap up cleanly like that. There are other things that happen and usually after it gets worse, it gets worse again and then after that it starts to get better slowly. There is pain and suffering, grief and depression and eating of all the food that can be reached.

What I really want to see is the same story but told from the male perspectives. Maybe as women we shouldn't fear having a straight male friend. I want to see two male friends fall for the same girl. So pretty much the story in Made of Honor but not so cliche of finding some tall, dark and handsome stranger in a foreign country. But to see one man silently court his best girl without her ever realizing what he is doing, not to only discover that he loves her when his friend swoops in and starts courting her. To see the same struggle women have as the perfect one sweep your friend off her feet instead of you. Maybe one day I will be able to accomplish this.

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Winter blues...

I'm a terrible person because I opened this window almost 20 minutes ago and I got busy working on other things. I hate this time of the year. It is not even seven pm and it has been pitch dark outside for over 30 minutes. It feels like it is midnight and I can't handle it. I spend 95% of my day inside and it is almost dark by the time I get home and I only really get to spend one day outside and this week I'm going to spend it on a bus of some sort going to Dallas and then coming back. Then there also happens to be nothing on tv tonight. I'm stuck watching Amish Mafia because there really isn't anything on.

I'm still working on doing the dishes and trying to figure out what to do for dinner. Trying to figure out what kind of tree I'm going to put up. Most of my lack of get up and go has to do with my lack of sunlight. I suffer quite a bit from a lack of sun in the winter. I just want to spend time in the sun because this is one of the few times a year that the sun is tolerable in Texas.

I hate Pier 1 commercials because they show the cutest stuff on them and I have NEVER found any of those things in the store. I only occasionally venture into the store and usually because I have seen awesome things that I want to buy on the commercial. I happen to love penguins and they have such cute penguin things. Anyway that really doesn't matter that was only because I saw a commercial.

Working with leftovers and those are some of the most difficult to work with because you've already seen them and if they weren't great the first time round it is hard to make them great a second time.

Back to the Amish Mafia where do they come up with these kinds of shows. There are just so many things that you watch on tv that you wonder why they thought it would be a great idea to put it on tv. The sad thing is that so many people will watch it and continue to watch no matter what happens.

I hate winter and it being cold. I need to go sit on the floor in the kitchen and the floor is just so cold I can already feel the cold even though I'm sitting on the couch. Going to suck it up and go work on the kitchen.

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Tweaking...

I have been doing a little bit of tweaking on the overall feel of the blog and I'm still not liking the font and the color. The size to me still seems a little bit too small and awkward. That will just have to wait until things slow down some more. Right now Kitten is sitting sleeping on the back of the couch because she couldn't find a place that would work for her...like my chest. She must think that she is a kitten because three or four times she climbed up on my chest and then went around my shoulders and try again. I'm just afraid that she is going to fall off the couch. I think that the relationship we have with Kitten and KitKat is the best that you can have with a cat. Someone else feeds them, they sleep outside, we are like the grandparents. We give them catnip let them come in the house, climb on the couch, let them act like they have no manners and then when they are ready to go outside they go and stand by the door and meow until we let them out. Except for KitKat who tries to sleep under our dining room table and then goes all spaghetti cat on me and then gets angry when I try to pick her up to take her out. She knows if she hisses that I will  let her go and then she will walk to the corner of the couch where Just_a_boy is sitting and wait for him to tell her that she has to go out. Eventually she will come to the door and wait for me to open it and then she goes out.

See you again later maybe I can get some pictures of Kitten and KitKat.

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Trying this out...

I am going to try this once and see if it works. I have never done this before and this may be the way to go. I probably have noticed before that there is a schedule option over on the right hand side of the post.

So if all goes well this will post while I am at dinner tomorrow night.

I have been a little disappointed in myself this year in not keeping up with my posting and leaving a whole lot unsaid. I have to get my Christmas cards address and written up and in the mail this week or they are not going to make it to everywhere they need to go. I also will probably need to buy more stamps in general especially if the prices are going to go up soon which is no surprise. I am probably going to start doing a little planning for the new year soon and will be putting it up here so that I can have someone keeping me accountable for what I plan on doing. I know that there are a few on the list already.

1. More reading 30 before 30 is going very slow...I think that I have finished just one book on the list.
2. More writing
3. The house will be clean by summer.
4. More blogging

Trying to keep away from the completely obvious spend less money exercise more...big deal those are no longer New Year's resolutions those are the lies that we all tell ourselves and rarely ever follow through on.

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Just Crazy...

It has finally gotten a little into the winter weather mode here in Texas. It was really nice to come out to 'Texas Snow' aka frost which is usually as close as it comes to having snow where I live. I will admit that it did snow about two years ago and it was so amazing to see it actually snow. Of course snow here in Texas is maybe an inch two if we're really good and it comes at night when you can't see it or enjoy it. So to actually wake up from a nap and see that there is snow falling it makes you smile and want to run around all silly like and play and try to catch snowflakes on your tongue.

This is going to be a crazy week so this will probably be the only post that I can hammer out before the weekend. Got a birthday dinner, Christmas party, football game and Christmas shopping to do before  Sunday. It would be better if I could actually get my list together so that I have a plan. That to me is the most important thing is having a plan when it comes to doing all the Christmas shopping in one swoop. Of course I would have to know what to get my husband. He is one of the most difficult people to shop for, well men in general are hard to shop for. They just make it difficult with telling you that they don't need anything, that they don't want anything, having you is all that they need or just not giving you an answer in general. 

And having two teenage brothers does not make it any easier. I hate buying clothes for people or gift cards. Because with gift cards you are telling them exactly how much you think of them. Then I ask my brother what he wants he tells me a hippo. My 18 year old brother wants a hippo for Christmas. What am I supposed to do with that information. I told him that he is getting a Hungry Hungry Hippo game for Christmas. I always wanted that game and never got it. I had one friend who had it and she never wanted to play and the pink hippo was broken. I always wanted to play with that hippo and it was broken. I also always wanted the game Pretty Pretty Princess and I'm not sure if they even make that game in anymore. I will have to look at that later and see. Then I have to figure out what to get for everyone else. Makes things to difficult my family does. Only two people or maybe three have presents that are ready to wrapped and I don't really like to wrap presents either. Especially if there are those presents that are really obvious what they are. 

I guess from looking around the Internet that we are closing in on 12 days until Christmas and that is just 

crazy. I am still having a cow about how close to Christmas it is and how little I have done. 

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Getting close to Christmas...

It is getting close to Christmas and once again I am no closer to having my house clean and in a state to entertain. Not that there is a lot of room to entertain people in our tiny apartment but there has also been rumors that there is a fence in our near future. But right now I can only hope that it will happen before the end of the year but it will probably not happen. Anyway I have to get back to dishes.

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Distracted state of mind...

I was talking last time about the complicated love story and I ran aground somewhere else because I was busy watching what was on tv. That happens quite about around here. Right now there are so many other things that I need to be doing like laundry and dishes but I would rather be here on the couch covered up with a blanket and watching Top Chef Seattle reruns. I will admit that I was devastated that I had no clue that they were even on in a new season.

There have been so many things running through my head with the holiday season on us already and there being so little coolness in the air. I think that we are in the mid to upper 70s for the last couple of weeks with a few peaks into the 80s. That is terrible but not uncommon for Christmas in Texas. There are many Christmases that I remember running around my grandparents' yard in shorts with my cousins.

I am already distracted and will be back later to write some more. Hopefully I will be a little more focused that my current distracted state. Things are a little up in the air right now.

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The complicated love story...

I really can't believe that it has been close to a month since I was on her. There have been a lot of things going through my mind about what I want to write about. I've been pondering things like what does it mean to write the great American Novel, the rush of the last quarter holidays and clothes. I know some really heavy stuff there.

I've been reading on Doctor Zhivago for quite awhile now and know that some of the major problems I have with that book is the alternating and intertwined stories that at times can be difficult to follow, I think that the only reason I have been able to follow it because of a severe love for that movie. I think about that quite a bit when I am writing because I love the complicated story but also the complicated love story.

The complicated love story is one that always impresses me and seems to make critics and readers think that a novel tends to be on the trashy side because of that. Look at the great European novels, they are complicated and so well written there is no trade off. Hatred of a complicated novel comes from an inability to understand or even to keep up with what is going on. In reality life is complicated and that means that love is going to be complicated. I will have to come back to this because I have gotten a little distracted on Facebook.

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November....

I have been watching all of the thankful status updates on Facebook and it really has gotten me to thinking about things that I'm thankful for this year. This year though hasn't been all about being thankful. There have been a lot of ups and downs and loop-de-loops that have put me on the ground and I've been trying to get off the ground ever since then.

The worst part has been trying not to wallow in the despair and depression that comes from being knocked down over and over again, because you get to a point where it just seems to be easier to stay on the ground. Even when I want to stay there in the mud and muck there has been someone there to push me back out of the mud and tell me to get up and stop acting like a baby.  I will admit that as much as I have needed that there are a few times when I would have rather wallowed a little more in the mud.

For this point in the month it means that I'm thankful for the people who have pushed me out of the mud and not let me fall victim to myself.

thank you!

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Halloween..

I wish that I had something to write about but just not feeling it right now. Would rather be doing something other than dishes and cleaning.

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Wednesday

Things are going a little slow this week and maybe later this week I will finish Clara and be able to write about it this weekend. Right now I am thinking seriously about getting up and doing some dishes and folding some laundry. Tomorrow I will probably need to wash some more laundry instead of letting it pile up until it takes all four machines in the laundry room to wash everything.

I also need to work on putting the food back in the cabinet. I need to get my table back so that I can sit there to work on a few different things. 

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Reading, writing and watching...

Still working on my list of books to read. Working on finishing my book on Tiffany and Clara which is starting to drag but then again every book that I read drags at some point and I stress and strain and usually put it down for a while and then come back to it. I love to read and it makes me feel good. It really is one of the few things keeping me sane right now.

Trying to work on something new with a different style than I normally use. I've been told that I rely too much on dialogue before and right now using so little dialogue makes it feel forced to me. Trying to rewrite something that I had worked on before and I'm not sure if I want to do it or make them kinda sister stories. I just start writing and see where it goes and I'm still not sure of where it is going.

Right now we're watching Ink Master and I like some of what I've seen. I'm ready for the election and the world series to be over so I can watch my shows. I'm gonna finish this up so I can spend a little bit of time looking on Pinterest at tattoos.

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The second love of my life...

The second love of my life happens to be a man with multiple faces, personalities and outfits...the Doctor.

 This is Eleven. A true Whovian doesn't have a doctor because they know that no matter what the doctor looks like he is the same man. This is the first Doctor that I met. We met in the episode Flesh and Stone it introduced me to him, Amy, Riversong and the weeping angels. I was flipping channels wait you don't flip channels when you have DirecTV, you scan the channel guide while listening to what you don't want to watch is playing in a small corner of the screen. I've seen Doctor Who in the tv guide before and thought that I would finally give it a chance, and I haven't turned back since.

I met Ten a little later again in reruns and felt the same as I did about Eleven. He seems to have good stories. I've seen him talk with Shakespeare and light the Olympic torch. I am still upset that he did not get the opportunity to actually light the torch this summer.

I haven't really taken to Nine like the others because he was only here for one season and they don't air as often. I still want to give him a chance because I think that we owe him a lot.

These are the other loves of my life. We actually used the Doctor as a reason not to go out with family when this season started. We weren't guaranteed to be home in time for Doctor Who to start so we declined the invite.

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Sources: Eleven, Ten, Nine

Thursday...

This may not really be the exact middle of the week I'm glad that it is almost over. Watching The Raven. So far it is pretty awesome and I like how they are working in so many of Poe's stories not just the famous ones.  I have to finish watching so we will see how it ranks.

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30 before 30...Eat, Pray, Love

Eat Pray Love  by Elizabeth Gilbert

I know that it has been several months since I actually finished this one and well I really just haven't gotten around to putting it on here. I guess that's really it has been a few crazy months.

I had issues with this book. There was just something about this story that made me uncomfortable. This is the story of Elizabeth and her journey to find herself and recover from a devastating divorce. I struggled to read parts of this book and not for the reasons that I normally struggle with a book. I have never read words that translated into my soul more than hers, her struggles became mine. I thought about her after I closed the book at night, I put myself in her shoes, it made me think.

Her journey takes her first to Italy where she learns that there is more to life than what we Americans think. The biggest lesson that she learns is that as Americans we take the simple things in life for granted and that there are times when doing nothing is just as sweet as doing everything possible. She takes time to enjoy food at every chance she can with little regard to her pants even going as far as to struggle to zip a pair of jeans and even succumbing to buying larger ones in favor of stopping eating. Never once do you read about her going to a museum or raving on and on about the architectural wonders of Rome. That is what Americans do, we go to Europe and look at all the touristy things instead of doing what locals do and relax and enjoy.

Elizabeth hops a plane from Italy to India where she spends her time at an ashram. Anyone who has ever spent time with their own thoughts knows that can really be the devil. Being alone with your thoughts is when the devil really starts pulling out the skeletons in your closet. Some times you just get sucked in by that little voice that tears you down and that brings all those things you have buried deep down and makes you feel like poo. She suffers from demons that she doesn't always tell you about and we all respect that because I know that I wouldn't want to bring all of those things back into the light.

From there she goes to Indonesia to send time with a medicine man. To me this is where the book started to drag and I really don't remember what happened. I know that is the worst thing that I could say about a book that it started to get a little boring and I was just trying to get to the end of the book. I rushed a little and I do know that she finally found love and balance.

It was good not sure though if I would recommend it to others. I would pick the movie over the book on this one instead of the book over the movie and that never happens in my house.

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Admission...

I have to admit that I have been ignoring my 30 before 30 list and have been reading a few other books and no I haven't thought about writing about those books but I will. When I started this journey I failed to realize just how close I was to 30. Basically I made a decision in the days leading up to a birthday and failed to factor that into the equation. I guess for now I will just read and see what happens. 

I am currently in the middle of a wonderful book and hope that I will be able to finish it in the next few days so that I can write about it and then I will finish writing about Eat Pray Love. I've been working on it and I just don't feel like I can do it justice. Or really that I can't do justice to how I really feel about the book and keeping it separate from what I saw in the movie.  I will admit that the movie was pretty decent if I get to see the end. But what I have seen is pretty good not sure that I would want to own the movie and I catch different parts of it on Starz from time to time but it always seems to be when I am watching something else. 

I will see you later because I have to see what is going to happen on CSI and fight the urge to flip over to Duck Dynasty which also started tonight and isn't on a second time until 1 or 2 a.m. and well that is too late to stay up if I plan to go to work tomorrow. 

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Cleaning...

I have been working on a desperate attempt to clean my house up...mainly because I am sick of getting crap from the exterminator about the ants that my dirty apartment leads to the ants that live in my bathtub and among my shoes in my closet. Yeah you heard me that dirty downstairs leads to ants in the closet and the bathtub.

So my first goal was to get the dining room table cleaned off which happened. Mainly because I put things in new piles on the floor because I can't part with magazines that I haven't read and I keep thinking that I may do something crafty with or donate them to something. Yeah they will probably just will end up sitting on the floor until I put them in a box and carry them to another place. I had three years of Teen Vogue in my cabinets when I left my mom's house so I keep magazines for way longer than I should.

Anyway, after all the stress of working on the table I immediately covered it up with every once of food that is in my kitchen so that I could assess the contents of my pantry. And well I have the following:

8 pounds of sugar
4 pounds of brown sugar
2 1/2 jars of molasses
10 cans of peaches
1 dozen packs of ramen noodles
3 boxes of assorted crackers
3 dozen cans of green beans, corn and other canned vegetables

Everything is now on the table and meals are now decided based on whatever is the most accessible. I did throw away some popcorn that said 2009, a box of out of date fake pop tarts, some mixed nuts that my mom gave me after my wedding, jar of macadamia nuts that are from the dollar store so no telling how old they were to start with. A can of sweetened condensed milk or evaporated milk, I'm not really sure it was so old that it wasn't worth looking for a date on because it is the old style of Wal-Mart labeling from before they went to the solid white labels. It was a rejected can from my mother's pantry. I still haven't gotten fully into the cooking thing because I have a tiny kitchen and one day when it is clean I will have to post a picture of it.

There are still dishes all over the place and all my canisters are open and in need of cleaning because of a fish tank accident. They may have a rubber seal on them but that does not make them waterproof. I will try to be on here as much as possible over the next few weeks as much as my internet will allow. Gotta keep my options open.

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One week out and feeling blue..

It has been a little over a week since the companions have made their exit and I might be ready to talk about it. I just really haven't had the words to say what I feel about Amy and Rory no longer being the companions. Of course the only thing that I could think really think of was if Rory and Amy died in the 1930s in New York then how did Amy ever meet the Doctor?  Isn't that one of those things that messes up the entire time stream or really I guess it doesn't matter because the Doctor says that time is not linear.

I'm going to miss them. I really am going to miss them. I think when you're a Whovian I don't think that you are defined by your doctor, I think that you are defined by your companion. I really haven't been a fan of any of the other companions up until Amy and Rory, I liked the dynamic that they've created. Amy balances out Rory and together they balance out the Doctor.

I'm not a little sad about the mid-season finale of Warehouse 13, I already miss Leena. I am still emotionally unavailable because of this mid-season break. I will feel my lonely heart with books and cleaning the house.

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So sad....

So sad to watch the series finale of Doctor Who and it made truly sad to see the end of Rory and Amy as the current companions. I'm not really ready to talk about it yet.

I have to admit though the episode was very well written and the story line was great but it sad and I'm not really in a mood to talk about it. Maybe in a few days I will.

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So tired...

Been a crazy week. Didn't even get to talk about Doctor Who this week and I can honestly say at this point not too sure what happened but it was good just like every episode. Little bit worried about this week having the weeping angels, they rank very low on my list of good episodes. Thinking back I realize though that the original episode with River Song and the angels was probably one of the very first episodes that I watched and part of what hooked me on the magical adventures of a mad man and a blue box.

I didn't get to sleep last night...I slept but it wasn't the sleep that you need to get up and go to work and be functional at five o'clock. I felt like a puppy chasing my tail for most of the afternoon. I have so much to do this weekend and I'm not even sure if I'm going to get it done. I just want to sleep and I almost didn't get up from the nap that I  took when I got home, but I need to eat and definitely need a shower.

I also have a new book that I am reading that admittedly I bought based on the cover and when you see the cover you will completely understand. It is called Clara and Mr. Tiffany  and when you see the cover you will understand. The picture does it no justice and if you can stop by a bookstore and take a peak do so. I was drawn to this book based on the cover and automatically flipped it over to see what the story line was. This one is historic fiction based on the life of Clara Driscoll and her work for Louis Comfort Tiffany. I have my eyes on a set of Tiffany style lamps that use the famous dragonfly pattern. If I can snap a few pics I will load them over the weekend.

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Working out the kinks...

I haven't been on in awhile because I have been having Internet problems and I just don't have the patience to try and type anything out on my smart phone. So when I do have access I am desperately trying to catch up on Facebook and what I mean is trying to catch up on my Pioneer Trail game. Yes I am a bit of  a Pioneer Trail addict, and don't you dare ask me if it is Farmville. It is not the same .

Talking about catching up means that I am trying amazingly hard to just keep up with the fact that every time I finish one quest they come out with five or six more to replace it. I am still trying to complete the ones from Halloween last year and it is almost time for those to come around again. Pretty much I am always behind where my friends are and never seem to catch up.

I just try to finish one thing at a time and go on. I think that they only things that I have finished are the Thanksgiving and Christmas quests which put me behind on the Valentine's Day, Memorial Day and all the other ones that have come out.

So just like in the rest of my life always one step behind. In other news though I am trying to get back into a groove on writing in general because that seems to be the one thing that keeps me going. I have noticed in the last ten plus years that anytime I am working on writing something I can keep my weight down and  under control the minute I stop writing I gain weight. In the fifteen years since I really have felt a calling to write I have gained over 100 pounds and lost and gained some. It makes me sad to think about the fact that at five foot seven and 122 pounds I thought that I was fat. That is what society has taught us that it isn't acceptable. I am the shortest of all my cousins on both sides of my family. I come from a family where most everyone has hit the six foot mark and are long and lanky. My grandma and her six sisters all played basketball in school, so really to be five-seven and over 200 pounds is a little disappointing. I hate to just kinda start something and leave but I have a few things to get together before I have to go to bed. Hopefully again tomorrow I will get something up here, maybe talk a little more about my family. Maybe talk about writing not really sure. I am working on a new story because well I have issues with finishing a story.

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Doctor Who & Signatures

I will admit that the opening of Doctor Who did not disappoint. I really did like the character of Oswin that was introduced and I am uncertain of her future on the show. I am unsure of whether she will be the new companion but it would make for some interesting plot lines if they do keep her. I will be sad to see Rory and Amy go this season and I hope that it will be later in the season so that I can be more prepared.

I have yet to get online and do a little more research but I could have sworn the other day on Pinterest I saw a complete Doctor Who series on DVD, and when I say complete I mean as complete as you can get going back to the beginning.

I had a little fun tonight adding a signature. Just to kick it up a notch make it more fun to get on here and write. I really just have to start forcing myself to get on here. I have a few posts I need to write or finish writing, need to get on that 30 before 30 list because well I don't have as much time as I think that I have. Especially when there are so many other things going on.

Saturday night...

I am ready for Doctor Who to start. This is how I plan to spend my Saturday nights this fall. On the couch watching Doctor Who and possibly eating fish fingers but not with custard.

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Finally Friday...

It is most certainly Friday and boy am I thankful for that. It has been a truly long week and having a holiday in the middle did not make it any better. I'm glad that it was a day off but it just seemed to make it that much longer before it ended. Then again that makes me wish that I worked a job that gave me a real weekend but then again I know better than to complain about having a job. I could have no job right now.

There are so many things going on right that I don't know where to start. I am still working on my 30 before 30 list which has gone by the wayside in favor of other books that I did not put on the list because they came in after I finished the list. I have started reading the Dreamhouse Kings series and I really can't wait to go out and buy the second one because the first one just seems to end all of a sudden. Then I have to go out and find the sequel to Evil Genius because it was pretty awesome and I'm not really sure where the next one is going to go because it just didn't seem wrapped up at the end.

I really shouldn't complain about a story ending and not being wrapped up at the end because I know that there are several things that I've written that just end and I ended them where I did because they just seemed to be perfect where they stood. This was also a bit of a plot device because I wanted the reader to feel the same way the character did just lost, to know the feeling issues being unresolved. 

Back to the 30 before 30, I will be writing about all the books that I read just to make me work more at blogging more instead of schlepping around Facebook playing childish games that have me swamped or on Pinterest looking at things I can't afford, fit into or am too lazy to exercise or cook. Then again anyone who has been on Pinterest knows that it will suck you in and never let you go if you let it.

I am also in the process of having to move everything over from my old laptop to me new one that dear sweet Just a Boy bought me as an early birthday present. I am really loving it even though it doesn't sound like it because I just downloaded antivirus onto my computer and all that good stuff. But I will admit that Google Chrome is the most kick butt awesome thing that you can have as far as internet goes because after downloading it logging in there tonight are all of my favorites and bookmarks are there waiting for me. Passwords though are not and I have successfully locked myself out of my online bank account. So Tuesday morning I will be making a trip to the bank to see what it takes to get it unlocked. It also doesn't help that I think that there has been some kind of change to something that I was not completely aware of because the letter looked like one of those generic we will not sell your information letters you get all the time, soooo I didn't exactly read it. Then I think really by the time that I realized it I had already locked myself out and it obviously has an indefinite lock out period. Which blows and I will have to come up with a new password even though I'm not really sure which one I got wrong. 

Anyway it is getting a little past my bedtime since I do have to go to work and some people have a tendency to call in sick as much as they want. I just hope that doesn't have to because since there was a holiday I don't get overtime pay but I still have 30 minutes overtime already and not really sure how that works since I don't remember being early or any of that good stuff this week. I think though I have been on time more this week because I have been dragging myself out of bed in the morning and being extremely grouchy and sluggish. 

Must exercise more to keep this from happening as often but I do enjoy my sleep much more than when I am exercising. Too much work for so little sweat. It takes a ridiculous amount of anything to make me sweaty. I also sweat in the worst places like under my knees, not the backs but between the knee and the shin that is where I sweat and is really gross. Ankles are pretty sweaty too. Not too many other places sweat but then again I would have to work harder to get that to happen. 

So much to do so little time to do it all.

love ya!

So long....

I know that it has been a long time since I just sat down and thought about what I wanted to write. I know that I'm not the best and sticking with anything for long periods of time without there being any reward. There is  no reward for this, I have very few followers and probably won't ever have many.

I am currently struggling with that end of the school year lag. My brother is graduating from high school so I am pulling all kinds of stops out. I am currently working on a t-shirt quilt that is taking up the better portion of my living room. I have silk flowers for prom flowers all over my dining room table. I am exhausted to a point where I really don't know what to do other than cry. I know that I need to take a shower, do laundry, fold clothes, wash dishes, clean the fridge and sleep until my brother graduates from college.

I have been neglecting being on here in favor of reading other blogs just because well it is easier to see what others are writing about instead of actually just sitting here working on something for myself. I guess really I am trying to find out who I am right now in this blogging world. Do I want to blog about my life? Blog my clothes? The very slow and unmotivated weight loss journey that I am on? Crafts? Books? There are just so many options and I don't know what to do.

Really my life has never been about any kind of control, I just wander aimlessly around waiting for the right thing to hit me at the right time. I hate to sit and rush something because it just feels forced and I know that it sounds forced. No one wants to read drivel that could simply be your own life. I'm not here to just sit and complain about what is going on in my life, but it is hard for me to let people into my personal life because there are so many things that just hurt to talk about. I know that this seems like no where but I am racing the battery right now and I see the screen starting to dim and that means that time is limited. I would like to get to bed before midnight tonight because it has been a few weeks since that has happened. My new smart phone is keeping me awake at night because now I have all these games that I can play at night instead of reading because I don't need a light for the phone. I have finished another book on my thirty before thirty and I guess that means I should sit down and right about what I thought. I need to check and see what books are on that list. I guess at night I could read Hard Times instead of playing games since I downloaded it on the books app.

I am going to try and do this a little more often. I would like to have more than a mass of posts at the beginning of the year, a smattering in the summer months and then this mad dash at the end of the year to make it seem like I don't care about it.

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Thinking out loud....

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about family. There are just so many things that you don't really think about until someone else says something to you about it.

Just_a_boy and I both are quite interested in history which leads you to the road of genealogy. Of course that right now just means using Google and whatever free resources there are on the internet. A recent check on, ancestry.com led me to a startling revelation on my family history, okay really not such a revelation but a realization of the past. I guess if your parents were born here in the states you just assume that your family has been here, that your family has always lived in America. On my dad's side of the family that just isn't true...I happen to be just a third generation American. That really isn't that far removed from the old country if you think about it, less than 100 years.

Trying this out...

I'm not sure how this is going to go. This post is coming from my phone. New phone means a new chance to learn how  everything that is simple and easy on your phone can actually be difficult and annoying. But I do like that this means that I now have more access to this pretty much everywhere. That doesn't mean that I will be blogging more it just means I have more options of when and where.

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30 before 30...

I keep seeing these kinds of posts and I liked the idea of pushing myself to read. So really here it goes this is my list of thirty books before I turn thirty and I am sure that I will be adding books to this list because well I already have. Actually as I was reading over the list I saw that there was one book that I had accidentally put on there twice which is no big deal because I already read a book since I started this and I have started another, both of which are not on the list. The rules which I promptly broke were that these were books that at some point I had started or where already in my possession. I also didn't want it to be that I read thirty books at random, that I would set a goal and just write down the books as I read them. All of these books I had when I made this list with the exception of Eat Pray Love. It took the place of the duplicate Catch 22 which I had not seen until tonight. 

So here goes...

1. Great Expectations April 29, 2016

2. Emma

3. The Savage Detectives

4. Hard Times

5. Sacred Hunger

6. Brave Men Gentle Heroes

7. Catch 22

8. The Hobbit

9. The Clue in the Diary

10. The Bear

11. Across Five Aprils

12. Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister oops! Not sure.

13. Doctor Zhivago

14. Quarterdeck & Bridge

15. Shiloh in Hell Before Night

16. The Gangs of New York

17. Hello Charlie

18. Tarnished Scalpels

19. Eat Pray Love  April 20, 2012

20. Women in Vietnam

21. Elizabeth the Struggle for the Throne

22. Pigs in Heaven

23. Animal Dreams

24. Debt of Honor

25. The Origin of Species

26. The Screwtape Letters

27. The Unknown Soldier

28. The Concrete Blond

29. Anne of Green Gables

30. Anne of Avonlea

Each of these books probably has a story as to why it is on the list and I will go into that with each post about the book.

love ya!

Sad news...

I do have sad news. This morning I came downstairs turned on the lights in the fish tank to find my more Dolly swimming upside down. She wasn't quite gone but we had to pull her out. She was doing her best to try and swim and not have us notice that she was swimming upside down. They always seem to float a little crooked but this was just too sad. She kept swimming into the bubbles to get flipped over but she just didn't have the stamina to make it.

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End of the month...

I really keep meaning to get on here and write something but I just haven't had the time or energy. I still don't even really have anything to say I just hate feeling like I've abandoned this. I'm doing good if I get to read some of the blogs that I follow on a regular basis. I've been spending a lot of time on Pinterest and that takes up way more time than you would think.

I am going to try and work on getting some more stuff up here in the next few weeks. I think I may have found some more chairs for my dining room table which means I have to get on cleaning up my house so that I can get  them in my dining room which is kinda small.

love ya!

New year New goals...

Yes I realize that we are almost a month into the new year but I think that you should really think about the goals that you are going to set and you can't really do that in December because there is just too much going on.

This year I am going on a bit of a health kick.

Partially this is because well when I got on the scale and it said 223.4 pounds that is way to much for my height.  I get all winded going on stairs and I do that probably 10 to 12 times a day on average. There are some days when that is way lower and then days where that may only cover the morning.

I got in a little late on it but there are a few of us at work that are all in on this. They pitched in and bought a scale that we keep upstairs And once a week we are going to weigh in. Hopefully this will be the kick in the pants that I need to lose this weight.

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What day is it?

That seems to be the question around here is what day is it? It feels like an endless day and it is way early for that kind of feeling. I have run over my limit on Internet again this month. I'm not really sure why or how. Only in the last three months has this happened and it is growing on my nerves. At least I know that there will be a reset on Sunday night which means I won't be off too long and that is only if I don't decide to go over to my mom's and anger my brother. Because obviously being on Pinterest will just suck the speed out of wi-fi. 

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So bored....

Saturdays around this place are feast or famine and today is the latter. Yep, sitting around looking for something to do. Pouncing on customers like the crazy perfume ladies at the mall. Or those people that have the kiosks that will chase you down to try and sell you something you don't want or care about. 

Days like today are the kinds where things will go wrong. I am currently trying to optimize the boxes of junk that I have in my office. Trying to pack things up in bundles for people to buy on the spur. Mainly just nuts and bolts from prepacks and things that have fallen on the floor and gotten left behind. Happens more than you think. At some point I need to get the broom out and sweep out underneath my desk because the last few weeks have consisted of me pushing anything on the floor underneath it at the end of the day because I have been too tired to care about sweeping. I really need to get one of those steam mops to clean the floor behind my desk because there are a whole rainbow of colors. And my wallet from Wet Seal has made my purse and the floor look like Tinkerbell exploded. I think that glitter even got inside the sealed of pack of fruit snacks that I had the other day. I didn't even know there was one in the mall until I got a whole mess of stuff from there for Christmas. It was all nice except for the glitter fairy in my purse. 

Well I have to get back to work try to make some money.

love ya!

New Year...

Things have been a little hectic lately and I've found other distractions than taking the time to blog and think and muse. Well I've been thinking and musing but not much of the blogging thing. I am pondering the thought of a month without Facebook but I'm not so sure how that will go.

Right now I am trying to recover from inventory and a severe desire not to do anything. I would like to sleep, listen to music and play on Facebook, which would be okay if I were actually interacting with my friends but alas I am kinda addicted to playing Pioneer Trail. It is not easy to just quit playing because I have all these missions to complete and I get prizes and some are on a time frame. The ones on a time frame are currently getting under my skin because some of them are not very realistic goals or they change, there were a few I had until the end of January but now have less than two days to complete and I'm pretty sure that January is not over just yet. Which means that they will be rolling out missions geared for Valentine's Day and that stinks. Then every time I finish a mission they give me three more or there are more parts some of them are six or seven parts long. 

Sorry just a bit of a rant. Just a Boy doesn't understand it. I am happy to say that Just a Puppy is getting back most of his hair in the long and slow process of a month of every other day baths and believe me he doesn't like it. He is suffering from a bacterial skin infection which is much better than having mange which would have effected the other dogs. So every other day we go to my in-laws, take him inside, wash him with flea shampoo first, then the anti-bacterial and wait 10-15 minutes with that on and if you have never dealt with a soapy puppy 10-15 minutes might as well be two hours, then we rinse, blow dry and then give him oral antibiotics. The difficulties associated with this include Just a Puppy's over protected Catahoula leopard wanna be mama, Sassy who has taken to standing over him when we show up and poking people by which I mean me in the stomach with her paws. Inside we are greeted by a Shih Tzu puppy who thinks he can fly, Hotch and a pug who could care less, Tater.  Hotch really only wants to know what is in Just a Boy's arms more than anything. He usually spends bath time being pathetic outside of the bathroom door moaning and whimpering until we come out or someone entices him to come to the living room. Hotch thinks that anytime the front door opens he must be there to greet you. 

Getting in the door at my in-laws has to be done in steps. Usually one of us stays behind to distract the outside pups from trying to go in especially since the inside pups want to come out. Once the screen door is open you are trying to keep two out and once you have the inside door open you are trying to keep those dogs inside. It is equally complicated whether you try to do this one person at a time on entering or as a group. If you have someone new to the group though we have to break it up. Hotch doesn't understand the etiquette of greeting people. That you must let them enter the building before you start freaking out that you don't know who they are and you want to be best friends with them and tell them all about yourself. And he will continue to try and dance with you and pounce until you acknowledge that he is there.

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