Saturday, July 30, 2011

Saturday at home....

It has been a long time since I've spent a Saturday at home without having to go somewhere or having any previous engagements. This is only because last night Just a boy and I went to the wedding of one of my oldest friends.

There were a few elements that I thought were pretty unique. They did not have a unity candle but they took two vials of colored sand (black and white) and the bride and groom poured them into a container to represent how they were becoming one and that they could no longer be separated and then the pastor poured purple over the top when they were done to represent the addition of Christ in their relationship. Another unique element that I think is specific to the venue is that on the inside doors of the church they have their names on the doors. I guess for those who are unsure of which side is for the bride and which is for the groom. It was really a beautiful venue.

They had the wedding ceremony in the chapel and the reception in the carriage house. I wish that I had taken pictures and I had planned to do that but for some reason when I got there I just couldn't pull the camera out. I was more concerned with snuggling up with Just a boy and being truly happy for my friend.

love ya!

Saturday, July 23, 2011

My nose....

My nose well it is killing me. After weeks and weeks of having little tiny bumps in my nose I was finally able to scratch them out. Yes I stuck my finger into my nasal cavity and scratched away until there were no more bumps. If God hadn't intended for fingers to be inserted into nostrils either our fingers would be larger or nostrils smaller. And when it is not in pain I am sneezing or suffering from unrelated hiccups.

love ya!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Spending a Thursday on the couch...

I wish that right now I had more to say but everything I'm feeling has been said before and that makes it, well pointless.

Really sad to see that it is almost the end of the summer and it doesn't even feel like it has started. Trying to figure out what this year is going to bring me. I know that maybe this is the wrong point in the year to figure that out but I still haven't really figured out what this year is going to be about for me.

I think that I am supposed to be learning about taking things in stride. My job though right now is not helping that. I am spending a lot of time telling myself that I am not responsible for what my co-workers are doing or not doing, that I am only responsible for what I do. I would say more but then it just turns into complaining and that doesn't help anyone. I can only say that things are starting to build up and I have to keep my nose clean to make sure that as little as possible hits me.

But I know that it will hit me, it always hits me. Have to watch the runway portion of Project Runway.

love ya!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Okay...so maybe I am a nerd....

Definite signs that I am a nerd.

Today I smiled when I saw the Google doodle for Mendel's 189th birthday and I didn't not have to look him up to know why there were pea pods making letters. Most of the time I do not have to look up the Google Doodle to understand.

I  came really close to smacking the guy who told his sister that she would have to explain Harry Potter to him during the movie.

I can answer almost all of the commercial break questions on the Discovery Fit and Health programming. I only word it that way because there are a few different ones that have questions during the breaks.

I can remember the diagnosis if we have seen the episode before but I can't remember which shoes I wore to work on Monday.

I will look up famous people that are mentioned on TV shows just so that I can know more about that person. 

I like Warehouse 13 and if you haven't watched it you should check it out. Learn a little history while you're at it.

love ya!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Enjoying the time...

I think that is one of those things that I really forget about a lot of the time is to just enjoy what I have. These last few weeks and the last two years have been about that. There are things that I really just forget about that I should stop and think about what is going on and just to enjoy the time.

I look back at the times that me and Just a Boy would spend the evening snuggled up on a twin size daybed watching whatever his brother had on the tv. Or just snuggled up on the couch with all the lights off watching the fish in the fist tank. That has to be one of the most peaceful things on earth to just sit and watch a few fish in a fish tank swim around. To see the pecking order of a different world, one that you truly don't understand how it runs.

We spent most of the afternoon with Just a Boy's grandmother taking her to get some diabetic supplies. I think that the best part of the day was when we turned around at the edge of town to go back and go get ice cream at Ben & Jerry's which truly makes me happy. A few years ago when we went to Washington DC that was my one request before we left was to get B&J's at a scoop shop or eat Chinese food, sadly we ate Chinese food at the food court in Union Station. It is debatable on whether that was a better choice. I was in severe need of food because the hotdog I ate at 10:30 was not enough to sustain me until 2:45 when we turned around. I'm not sure if the sweet cream and cookies was that good or if I was just that hungry, but it was a good choice. I thought that it wouldn't be the best idea because it's basically cookies and cream and that has a tendency to be a little blah at times. I'm waiting for the day that someone decides to make cookies and cream ice cream using the mint Oreos.

Right now I'm just trying to motivate myself off of the couch to do the dishes or clean up the living room. But I really want to see a bean burrito stuck on the end of Speedy Gonzalez' nose. Until that happens I don't know if I will be able to get off the couch because well obviously my husband has never seen Daffy Duck's Fantastic Island.

love ya!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Trying to work it out...

I'm just trying to work it out right now and things aren't going so well. Right now I seem to just be moving things from one place to another in my house. Even in my office it took me over an hour to clean up my desk which wouldn't have taken so long if there weren't so many customers while I was working on it. Then as soon as I finished I pretty much lost steam. That was the end of working on my office and of course there was laundry to do when work was done. Of course I will admit that I may be exaggerating the extent of doing laundry since my mom has been on vacation and volunteered to do it. I think that she really wanted me to stay when I came to pick it up and help her because she has been cleaning as well.

Of course that does mean that she is taking things that she wants to no longer be in her household and which means that they end up in my household. So that is making it worse since there are too many things in my house that do not have a place and are already overcrowded.

I wish that there was more for me to say right now so I will be out reading and commenting in other places.

love ya!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Communication....

I just don't have the words right now to communicate anything that I feel. It makes me sad and it makes me confused and I really don't know which way is up and things are just piling up and time is running out. I've tried to do all kinds of different things to motivate myself but in the end it really doesn't make any difference because I still feel the same, I still feel like no matter how much I try that I'm still barely treading water to keep my head above it. I'm just getting tired at this point and I don't want to try and keep my head above the water any longer, I just want to sink below the water and find an end.

It's like all the signs are showing me that there is something wrong but in the end I really can't put my finger on it and I'm not sure if I want to. Maybe this is just how it is supposed to be that we just keep trying to keep our heads above the water and in the end those that are strong will make it to the other side and those of us who are not will quietly sink beneath the turbulent waters of life and hopefully find some peace.

love ya!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Love is the action


And this is what it means....





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